My Life Goooooeesss OoooNnn.............. That Way~

my 20th bdae

2006-08-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

i will nvr forget i spend my first 8 hours on 19th aug 2006 working.. my next 6 hours slping.. how memorable is this... happy bdae to myself!

has been long.. long long long... since i last see myself typing on the com "im blogging" when ppl asked me.. "wad r u doing?" haha..

ok la.. without any bullshit! well~ the purpose of this post is to flaunt my bdae gifts.. lol. hmm~ b4 i carry on.. i will hav to thx everyone for the time spent n the gifts.. really thx a lot.. i appreciate everything.. =)

ok.. without further a-dos.. wad hav i received this year for my bdae?
suede nike sling bag- from dor, val, yh, mw, ocm, darryl, kiap, pk, eric, zx, zj, jar, mj, jy & cg

itz an antique mirror- from ys

a one bdae cake after 15 years of bdaes- from ys

the esprit belt i yearn for- from my best of buddies, xy, hm & yp

surprise gifts- from FOBAS team

vintage disney figurines- from yong

DIY photoframe.. SWEET!- from xueer

rusty look necklace- from xueer

Chicago album- from kelvin

m i blissed with frenz around me?!! HEE~ MUACKZ!! love u all for ur hearts!

Light up my Life!

2006-08-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

gawd~ my life is getting more n more dull le.. everyday.. is .. juz WORK WORK & still~ WORK!!

ask u readers a qn.. do u think im a workaholic?!!
no ba?!! haha.. i myself dun think so... haiz.. but it doesnt matter..

anyway.. i think this blog can close down le.. lol. nth interesting to read...
so~ please light up my life for me!

so many things i yet to do.. hope i can do them some day.. =)

im still alive

2006-08-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

dunno wat to post.. but wanna let ppl who cares abt me that im still alive.. =)

BANG!! Im HIT!

2006-07-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

seems like i hav nth to my blog yet.. hahaha.. but im not free to do anything to my blog last weekends.. so no choice..

well~ why im here at this hours?!! shouldnt i be working.. nope~~ im working night shift this week.. which is bad to me.. i hav tot of every entertainments for myself.. so that i can be occupied during work.. borrowed dvds from ys...

bcos of that borrowing.. i came into a situation whereby i hav to ans a few qn.. then my mum ask me the same qn over again this afternoon.. scary~ then she told me.. "girl.. itz time to get a bf.." im stunned.. totally stunned..

"they wan me out of the house le izzt?!" i tot.

however, wadeva he said.. i at least feel less restricted in life le.. which is a gd news for myself.. =)

A New Look?!

2006-07-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

not a new look for myself.. but a new look for my blog.. lol. hope this skin will giv me the feel to update my blog frequently.. but then.. up till now.. this is an imcomplete blogskin la.. lol. im lacking of ideas le.. haiz..

tired!! hmm~ Italy won World Cup 2006 wor~~ congrats to them.. =)

i got a motornike ride from yannie wor~ so cool~ 1st time ride on a bike driving on the road of Singapore.. the feeling is diff as compared to indonesia.. lol.
today's journey back home from work was considered a fast ride.. itz by company transport.. with onli 2 passengers in a 12 seaters van.. lol. how pathetic is that!? well~ next mth onwards.. ppl from the other department, BOD, gonna join us le.. this make me wonder.. by wat time i can reach home by then?!! haiz.. more passengers will be equal to the later i will get home.. last stop!! "SIMEI"~ zz..

the expressway is so empty during this late hours.. thatz so scary.. n why is my unit so far away the lift.. how i wish i hav the power to teleport myself back home..
-daydreaming-

tml gotta cont work le.. cya ppl soon.. will "beautify" my blog soon when im free.. =)

Outdated

2006-07-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

HEE~ i noe i noe.. itz like years since i last update my blog... hahaha.. bo bian.. abit too busy ba... weekdays work.. weekends.. if can jiu go shop or play... if not.. i will juz rest at home.. im alwayz occupied.. n at the same time.. im juz being lazy to post a blog..

hmm~ how's life recently ne?!! complicated as usual.. lol. busy with work lor.. last mth.. that is June.. i started 2 shifts.. well~ still able to adapt to the shift hours.. however now.. July.. we hav started 3 rotating shifts..
Morning: 0830-1700
Afternoon: 1600-0030
Night: 0030-0830
this week.. im in the morning shift.. working life still haven change much.. perhaps.. beginning from next week.. things will change le ba.. n yup.. im juz being cfm by the company on 4th July 06. doing the appraisal is something which im rather unhappy abt.. but.. anyway.. itz over..

During these "MIA" period, i did met up with xueer, zx, kel, dor n yh.. =) n we met up juz yest too.. cos itz our grad ceremony!
Happy Graduation Day everyone~!
took loads of pics.. ;)

ok~ now im lack of topics to tok abt.. hmm~ but b4 i end.. i shall share with u ppl something nice..

Always Live Life To The Fullest

Don't let go of Hope.
Hope gives you the strength to keep going
When you feel like giving up.

Don't ever quit believing in Yourself.
As long as you believe you Can,
You will have reason for Trying.

Don't let anyone hold your Happiness in their Hands;
Hold it in yours, so it will always be
within your Reach.

Don't measure success or failure by material wealth,
But by how you Feel;
Our feelings determine the richness of our Lives.

Don't let bad moments overcome You;
Be patient,
and they will pass.

Don't hesitate to reach out for Help;
We all need it
from time to time.

Don't run away from love but towards Love.
Because it is
your deepest Joy.

Don't wait for what you want to come to You.
Go after it with all that You Are,
Knowing that Life will meet you Halfway.

Don't feel like you've lost
When plans and dreams fall short of your hopes.
Anytime you learn something new
About Yourself or about Life,
You have progressed.

Don't do anything that takes away
From your Self-Respect.
Feeling good about Yourself
Is essential to feeling good about Life.

Don't ever forget how to Laugh
Or be too proud to Cry.
Or too stubborn to Smile.

Don't ever forget a friend who truly loves You
As it could be that friend who is true to your Needs
Don't ever forget who helped you Grow as your need
for more seeds may often re-appear

With all the above live life to its Fullest...

long awaited post~

2006-05-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmm~~ itz like years i nvr update my blog le hor?!! =x

GRR~~ im getting tired of work... somemore.. these 2 coming mths.. no more holidays~ but of cos.. no holidays will mean that there's now uptight workload for us.. work will be much more relaxing.. however, with Wang around... work is nvr ending for us all.. haiz..

this week is like hell lto me.. everything i do is in a mess.. i burnt myself by a hot steam.. now got 'Harry Potter birthmark' on my wrist le.. how unique of me to hav that mark ah~ zz... n my ICP results went rather off.. but this is cos the blank got prob.. not onli me in the department encounter this prob.. the other seniors too.. but then.. Wang dun understand la.. keep on yaking n yaking.. n this.. honestly.. irritates me..

my working life is like a lesson for me to control my bloody temper.. kind of a test to me... it seems to be getting harder.. nvr really tok to Jacinta for long le... cos i really bth her... n in other ways.. she oso nvr come pester me during work le.. but then.. who bothers la...

im wondering if im starting to work shift very soon.. hmm~ *think*

well~ i've been rather occupied for these few weekends.. watched a couple of movies le.. "Poseidon", "MI3" & "The Da Vinci Code" all r nice movies... worth a catch.. wonder watz my next movie wor~ "X-men 3" perhaps?!

guess wat?!! lol. i juz started to read the book that William bot for me.. "Life Swap" quite a nice start of the story.. n i quoted from the book which i think is true.. "happiness is not abt who is the best dressed or has the most expensive hangbags.." we dun hav to carry or dress in branded products to be happy.. as long as ur loved ones r by ur side.. u can be happy.. dun u think so? n im happy! =)
r u?

where does my sanity go?

2006-05-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

im going MAD!!! INSANITY~! OMG~

having mood sings lately once again.. this is crazy!!
mumbling loads of craps n rubbish to ppl around me or even juz to myself.. sound like i hav to be sent to hougang chalet very very soon... ZZzzz~ help me~!! haha

this week.. sian!! got tons of work loads.. omg~ fainting soon.. work OT for 2 days this first week of the mth liao lor.. total up.. 12 hours le!! omg~ lol. so crazy~ im feeling dead~ lol.

dun mess with me! i roar!

*Busy working woman

2006-04-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

been very long since i last updated this blog.. hahaha.. nth much to write actually... weekdays... working lor.. weekends.. OUT lor!

the very last sat.. went out with xy.. watched "Take The Lead"! DAMN NICE!!! muz go catch the movie man~

ok la.. some ppl may be wondering how hav i been... well~ work maybe busy but fun.. life is gd so far.. =)

will fork out some time to catch up with my dear frenz! especially hm, yp n xy.. =D May is coming soon!! hoho!!

Replies to the Complaints

2006-04-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

WAH! i've received a number of complaints saying that i nvr update my blog wor.. then no news abt me.. alright la.. juz to update on wat im doing currently..

hmm.. for the pass one week.. i have been working of cos~ well~ some ppl dun hav any idea wat im working as la.. hmm.. itz my first permanent full time job.. as a lab analysts at ITS located in jurong island! WOOOoooo~ FAR right?!! hahaha.. simei to jurong island.. some ppl muz be thinking that im crazy ba.. but to me.. itz better to be employed than jobless leh.. moreover.. this company im working in, is of the FIRST ranking for Singapore commercial testing lab... so.. muz think far.. if i really wanna change job.. i can beautify my resume with this company's name u see.. =D

watz my job prospect?
well~ itz dealing with fuel oils n petroleum... all i hav to do is.. carry out the test analysis for each sample n my job will be done.. but itz not as simple as it may sound la.. if result is off spec.. i will hav to repeat the test for confirmationsome ppl r fun there.. but then.. there's still some kuku ppl around la.. as long as they nvr offend me.. i will be be at peace le..

my working time n days?!
weekdays: 8.30am to 5.00 pm
alternate Sat: 8.30am to 12.30pm

ok.. so thatz all abt my work..

juz back from TM.. met up with xueer n yong juz now.. hmm.. eat n shop a bit b4 going to play billiard.. thx for ys's teaching for pool yest..

yest after half day of work.. ys drove all the way to jurong to fetch me out.. hee.. =P then went to PS Pastamania eat.. after that we went for look for The Cathay.. newly opened de wor.. itz a nice place.. =) b4 catching the movie "Eight Below" we went to play pool.. hmm.. ys taught me a few basic skills which came into application today la.. haha.. not bad wor~ after movie.. went to 老巴刹 hav our dinner!! he treat me again!! argh! after that he drove me home.. n i slept during that journey.. hahaha.. tired!

work goes on tml!! haiz!

Dates to take note of

2006-04-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

Saturday
went out with kel n xueer..

Sunday
went out with ys.. watched Ice Age 2

Monday
went for company's signing of documents n checkups.. followed by making of pass at Jurong Island.. Dad bot me new hp N6280

Tuesday
First day of Work at ITS

Wednesday
work.. nice gd nite slp! =)

Thursday
work.. fun lunch.. weird Robert asked, "y do u look like a model?!" =/ how will i noe.. wat a qn~

Friday
work.. n get fed up over Weng.. aRgh! went jogging after i reach home for a few min..

n tml.. half day work for me!

WOOT!!

2006-03-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

=D

i feel loved today!!! hee..

went for an interview today.. at Jurong Island!! long train journey to JE... then reach there.. the ticket booth aunty told me.. the bus juz went off... n i hav to wait for 1 hr for the next bus.. by then.. i will be late liao lor... bo bian la... flag a cab.. n set off..

zzz.. sadly to say.. im suay..this taxi driver is not sure of the map of jurong island.. haiz.. then make a few U-turns... taxi fare.. total up to be $15.. my heart dropped when i see my money juz fly away to the cab fare juz like that... then i told myself.. i better get the job no matter wat!.. i alight le.. then i almost faint... i still hav to walk so deep in!!
OMG!!! @$!#%$@%#

i was interviewed by 3 ppl.. oh man!! this is stress!!! but then.. the interview still goes well la.. hee.. n not bad leh.. i still got the privilege to tour the lab.. hoho!!

after interview.. they say they will call me.. so i left the company... n NOW! i hav a prob... i dunno where the hell is the bus-stop... so i ask the guard over there.. he asked me to walk straight then turn right... i take a glance at the path.. i cant figure out where's the turn.. so i juz walk.. suddenly, "honk honk!!" a big big lorry honked at me.. then the driver asked if i need a ride.. er.. i din decline the free ride sia.. when i got hom n told my mum abt it.. she scolded me.. =x then i told ys... ys say if he's my dad.. he will scold me too.. seems that im in real wrong this time.. hahah.. but then i understand la.. cant anyhow take strangers' free ride.. hee.. but then the bus-stop is real far!! haiz.. during that circumstances i oso bo bian..

i realized that my uncles n aunties all cared a lot for me sia.. hahaha.. all ka-jiaoing my mum early in the morning.. asking how's my interview.. haha

then met bong at queenstown badminton court.. played a bit of badminton in my formal wear.. =P after that met xy at TM... shop abit.. chit chat.. n eat.. n my hp rang..

YES!!!! IM EMPLOYED!!! HOHO

actually i got home.. i dunno to be happy or wat oso.. hahah.. juz hope that i will be able to adapt over there.. but then....... SOOOOOOOOoooooooo FAR! haiz...

k la.. back to tok abt yest.. went to ah gong's house.. 3 most little kids of the family were there.. hahaha.. kind of fun.. n little Tammy... ROAR! suddenly popped up a qn, "becca jie jie, wadz this socks doing here?" everyone juz burst into laughter... well~ cos the sock she's refering to is my hp pouch...
-.-"
then she wanna wear it for her little sister, Phoebe.. almost fainted.. LOL. but cute la.. hahaha..

Love Philosophy

2006-03-29T13:21:00.000+08:00

It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds...
But when these two world collide and become one.
That's what u call...MAGIC!

If you're AFRAID to love a person because of
friendship, you have 2 choices, either
tells what you feel and let the love take place of
forever or hide the feeling under
a friendship full of PRETENSIONS.

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make
me HAPPY?
To think that I have everything else, I get what I want....
Then I REALIZED IT WAS YOU, too bad coz' it's
YOU I can't have.......
Love can never be so beautiful without
FRIENDSHIP?
One leads to another and the process is
IRREVERSIBLE
The BEST of lovers is the GREATEST of friends!!!
Love DOESN'T have to have a HAPPY
ending, 'Coz love doesn't have to end at all.

When you love someone, DON'T expect that
person to love you back the same amount.
One of you will be ahead, the other behind.
It's either you catch up or the other waits.
Never be AFRAID to fall in love.
It may HURT a lot, it may give you aches and
pains, but if you DON'T follow your heart,
in end you will cry even more for not giving love a
chance.

I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the
one before me, so I'll let you go to find him/her and
hope someday you'll see that the TRUE LOVE
you're looking for was the one who set you FREE.
Isn't it funny?? We're trying to catch the attention
of the one we think we love. We hardly
NOTICE them till they are in the arms of someone
else....

Love is like standing on wet cement, the LONGER
you stay, the HARDER it is to leave and you can
never go without leaving your prints behind....

THINK OF THIS: have you really cared for
someone more than you expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all
the pain?
Will you keep on loving he/she whispers someone
else's name? Will you???

True love hears what is not spoken, and
understands what is not explained, for love
doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the
heart......
When you love, you must NOT accept anything in
return, for if you do, you're not
loving but INVESTING.

If you love, you must PREPARE to accept pain.
For if you expect HAPPINESS, you are not loving
but USING.....
I like you because you're my friend and because
you are my friend and I care, and because I CARE,
I LOVE you,
I don't love you because you are my
FRIEND.... I Love you because I do!!!!

FOOD FOR THE THOUGHT: it's better to lose
your pride with someone you love rather than
lose someone you love with your useless pride.
I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't
just love who chooses to love me....
and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as
much as I can't BLAME you for not learning to love
me.

"How can I say GOODBYE to someone I never
had???
Why do TEARS fall for someone who was never
mine?
Why is that I MISS someone i was never with and I
ask why I love someone who's
LOVE was never MINE?"

Don't love a person like FLOWER, cause a flower
dies in SEASON.
Love them like a RIVER cause river flows
FOREVER......

Love may leave your heart like SHATTERED
GLASS, but keep in mind that there's someone
who'll be WILLING to endure the pain of picking up
pieces so you could be WHOLE again....
Somehow, it reminds mi of jigsaw puzzles ....
It requires time, endurance n patient to fixed a
whole picture...
I know it's tough...my friend told mi that!!!

The best & most beautiful things in the world
cannot be seen or touched
They must be felt with the heart

Love is a choice
When we meet the right person to
love
when we're
at the right place at the right time,
That's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to,
that's not a choice.
That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a
lot
of couples who get together because of this)
is
not a choice.
That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush,
that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you sit
down
and contemplate whether you want to make
this
into a concrete relationship or just a fling.
If you decide to love a person, even with his
faults,
That's not a chance.
That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no
matter
what,
That's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out
there
who are more attractive, smarter, and richer
than your mate, and yet, you decide to
love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us
by
chance. But true love that lasts is truly a
choice.
A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful
movie
quote that I believe is so true about this:
"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to
you to make it happen."
I do believe that soul mates do exist.
That there is truly someone made for you.
But it's still up to you to make the choice if
you're going to do something about it or not.
We may meet our soul mates by chance,
but loving and staying with our soul mates is
still
A Choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding
someone
perfect to love...
BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person
Perfectly...

Conclusion:
It is not the matter how to find someone perfect to
love, but how to love someone imperfect
perfectly .....

Love itself is a choice.

I can touch the sky!!

2006-03-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

HAHA! i really got no idea why im so happy today.. hmm.. maybe after i jog le come back.. hahaha..

i received a phone call yest, asking me to go for an interview.. WOOHOO.. im so nervous lor... till today...

i cut my hair le~
*looking nice*
then after that.. prepare myself go for the interview... making sure im confident-looking enuff.. shirt ironed n buttoned up... skirt cleaned n straight... hair neat n tidy... so off i go!!

when i arrived at Paya Lebar MRT station.. im wondering.. which bus-stop should i board the bus from.. cos the guide indicates "opp mrt station".. so i walked towards the stop near the singapore post.. itz opp the station ma.. juz nice.. bus 24 is here!!! i board the bus.. then the next thing i noe.. i realized.. something is wrong somewhere.. im at Eunos!!! omg~!! im going the direction towards HOME!! immediately.. i alighted.. n rushed back to take the train from Eunos to Paya Lebar.. then i called Yong n told him wad happen n at the same time.. ask for direction... hahaha.. he say i 猪! LOL. ok la.. im juz 路吃 =x

well~ i still managed to reach the destination.. HEE! hmm~ think i will use this word "disappointment" to describe the interview... cos the scope for the job is not wad i desire.. hahaha.. itz dealing with microelectronics.. not true chemicals! HAIZ! nvm.. i will listen to Kel.. treat this interview as an experience..

back home liao.. cook 2 packets of instant noodles to store my stomach.. lol. i planned for a jog 1 hr later...

when i finished eating.. the sun is still shining n bright.. then i allow 1 hr to digest my food.. the moment i looked out of the window.. dark n cloudy sky is wad i see.. OMG~ i tot, "today is the third day i say i wanna go jogging le.. yet 3 days.. itz raining..."

i cant my own eyes actually... so i asked my mum, "mummy!! do u think it will rain?"
my mum replied, "no.. dun think so"

ok.. so i trust my mum... i go down... i started to jog.. n i heard.........
"RRRRROOOOAAAARRRRRRR~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!"
thunder roars! omg! n i saw lightnings.. but i chose to trust my mum la.. so i cont jogging.. hahaha.. AMAZINGLY! i saw the bright sun again!! HOHO!! so happy.. luckily it din rain.. lol. =P gd that i trust my mum.. hehe..

“你的眼睛会说话喔~”
*flys up to the sky*

hahaha!! im juz crazy.. =P

n btw.. i have edited a pic for my little baby cousin.. PHOEBE!! letz take a look!! ;)

short post..

2006-03-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

has been long since i last updated this blog.. howz life going along?!! missing me?!! hahaha..

1 great news! im unemployed!! hee! ya.. i've resigned from CargoTec..

spend tese few days at home watching 王子变青蛙.. hee! so nice..

then edited the some pics which ys n i have taken at esplanade on his bdae... =)

k le.. gotta do something else le.. cya..

Invisible Belief

2006-03-12T16:11:00.000+08:00

Everybody saw a miracle today,
Yet it didn’t affect me,
Everybody saw the stars, the sun,
Through a different majesty,
Everybody lived a fairytale,
As it unfolded like a dream,
Yet as everybody stood, and stared,
And time seemed stop,
The magic didn’t touch me,

Everybody saw a miracle today,
In a single moment of time,
The magic they find to overwhelm the feeling,
Through the ordinary eye,
The colour of the sky,
The ability to fly,
Their heart captured the meaning,
That simply evaded mine.

But as time resumed,
The miracle faded into a memory,
A myth of the ages,
As everybody began to soar away,
They didn’t notice they left me behind.

A miracle happened today,
And everybody saw,
Yet the moment passed me by,
I don’t believe in fairytales,
The twinkle of the sky,
You can see it if you try,
They did,
But I didn’t.
…I Believe…
I live in a fairytale,
Where miracles happen all the time,
And all the magic is inside.

itz not easy

2006-03-11T19:08:00.000+08:00

hmm... zx has started his first step into the army.. n be a man.. but why the hell is he having his com on for weeks when he's away... =/ itz a bit crazy for him.. hope he's doin fine in there...

well~ i hav hopped job.. i miss tampopo sia.. juz left for a day... i miss the fun there... now im doing some paperwork at CargoTec... part-time lor.. kind of stress.. but really hope i can get use to it.. well.. facing the com for more than 8 hrs.. hope my eyes wun hurt ah..

been busy these few days..

last sat: went out with that ass, Shan Wei, to search for ys's present.. well.. thx la.. hahaha.. thx for his help...

sun: went out with yong.. watched FD3.. eeks! no more roller coaster for me.. lol. =x

mon: itz ys's bdae! hahaha.. Happy Bdae! hmm~ watch Underworld... nice! then went esplanade.. after that sakae for dinner.. n esplanade again followed by merlion park.. well~ we took abt 140 pics! INCREDIBLE rite?!! wahaha.. show u ppl the pics when i received them.. cos the file is too big to send over via msn.. too bad..

tues: went out with mum b4 meeting mr yeoh.. for 2 hrs.. =/

wed: went to kel's house with yh, xueer, zj n zx.. rot a bit b4 going chinatown for lunch.. im the tour guide for the day~! =)

thurs: work my last day in tampopo.. gd bye!

fri: my first day of work in CargoTec.. stress~

n today.. read newspaper n the net the search for jobs.. haiz.. sad life i hav.. n i come across this from hm's blog.. meaningful words.. nice n true..

爱你永远

常常都听见一些小朋友对着他们当时喜欢的另一半，或当时喜欢的偶像说“我永远爱你”，这5个字当中，把他们拆开来，每个字都充满魅力、深具震撼性，而且真正的含义远比字面上来得深邃。

首先，“我和你”已经是可以产生出无数可能性的一个组合。

世界上有那么多的“我”，那么多的“你”，流行歌曲中常常有唱，“茫茫人海中，谁和谁相遇”，听起来很美，但实际上两个人可以相遇相熟，然后相知相爱，用数学算一算或然率，就会知道那可能比中多多/马票还难。

两个人想出一段长时间，不论感情有多深厚，在“我和你”当中，也必定有一些时而出现的不纯净“残渣”，有些自找的，有些飘来，若没有及时将之扫走，日子一久，在“我和你”中间必定产生磨擦，发出“火花”。

“我和你”之间的磨擦/碰撞/猜疑/吵闹的后果可以很差，却也可以更好，就看“我和你”之间有多少的宽容、谅解，以及信任。

但这种对彼此的关怀，需要长时间的酝酿和培养，绝对不是简单差事。

接着是“爱你”，这是多么伟大的情怀。

要死心塌地、海枯石烂、海誓山盟，天涯海角般地爱，不是不可以，但是不是真的有个人值得你如此对待？这样的感觉是否双向的？两个人相爱，是真得毫无条件地互爱，还是为了排遣寂寞和孤单？

而且，当你说“我爱你”的时候，你是习惯性的随口说说，把这当成是每一天和他说再见的时候的习惯性“问候”？抑或你每一天说这句话的时候，都比上一次用了更多真情义？

我记得自己从一个人的生活过渡到两个人的生活的那一段日子，有太多的不习惯，也有太多需要更改/调整的习惯。从吃饭、与朋友见面、出国旅游，到任何所花的时间，一个人自己做和两个人一起做有太多的不一样，几乎曾经想要放弃尝试。

因为我发现爱真的是一种错综复杂的感觉，若不能全情投入，就不能享受其中的苦与乐。是的，爱也必须要有一点苦，才可以在不苦的时候衬托出爱的甜蜜。

想一想，当你昨天对他说“爱你”的时候，你的爱到底是如何整合起来的？

最后是“永远”，这是毫无止境，几乎“永远”不可能看到的长远未来。

永远这两个字是在感情中被滥用得最无辜的字眼，每个人动不动开口闭口“永远”，没有考虑到抵达“永远”之间的各种可能性。

太轻易的承诺，到头来让两个字失去意义。

我很少说永远，因为看不到，也不能预料。但我尝试在心里面感受这种虚无缥缈的情怀，不动声色地默默经营一种天长地久，在实际行动上用做得到的种种来“支援”。

那可以是突如其来没有原因的小礼物; 过马路时不自觉地互牵对方的手；睡觉时为对方盖好被；吃饭时间一定问问对方吃了没有；时不时传送可能有点肉麻的“我想你”的SMS简讯；对方生病时自己心中的焦--忧愁，等等。

以上种种的小心意小举动，或许可以是“永远”的前奏，或许就是“永远”的基石，但离“永远”，还是很远。

我愿意享受当前，然后尽力将现在拉长，希望他日有机会回头望，惊喜地发觉原来那好像/可能/似乎就是永远。

不论你是谁，希望你昨天说的“我永远爱你”，可以是很久以后仍然对着同一个人说。
--吴庆康

BLIND

2006-03-04T00:58:00.000+08:00

ok.. im juz half done with this "new" blogksin.. ZZZzzzz

im not satisfied with this skin!! >.<"
Argh!! nvm.. i got loads of time to change it... or edit it.. i will make it perfect! =)

Craps may brighten up one's day

2006-02-26T12:31:00.000+08:00

time flies...............................
im abt to lead another kind of life.. a new beginning i suppose? wat hav i done or undone thru all these 19 years plus? been thru a lot of thick n thin.. ups n downs with frenz n family.. n here i stand.. rebecca who hav live up till now..

i've be down recently.. with no apparent reasons.. itz exam period.. brain cells r filled with tots.. not info on AIA, PPChem or Frag Chem..
kind of tiring thou.. but i juz cant be freed from all these tots.. itz rather negative ones i should say.. lol. nvm... im feeling worse now.. dun cont le.. gd luck for the last paper ppl! =)

back

2006-02-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find.The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

i realize i hasnt been reading books.. im not busy anymore... n here i m.. running thru tots again..
n someone has juz said "why r u going back to the rebec like last year.."
n ya.. juz like last year.. my tap is loose again..
drip.
drip.
drip.

no one i actually feel like toking to.. there's nth i can actually tok abt too.. it isnt worth toking abt too..

year 3 is coming to an end.. nth can be worse afterall.. itz over soon..

A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers.

this quote.. i will alwayz rmb.. itz quoted by sister cecily from my sec sch.. itz applicable in our life..

Vday plus plus plus

2006-02-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Friendship Day to all!!!

hmm.. how do i spend my Vday this year?!! not with bf.. cos i hav none.. but not alone.. at least.. lol. ya.. fortunately, i went out with ys.. he last min book out his camp on that day...

juz like any other day out with ys.. itz a rainy day!

after i went to sch to hand in my report.. i met up at suntec.. he bot the movie tickets.. watching "Fearless" then we proceed on to look for something to fill our stomach.. thatz lunch time la.. ok.. as usual.. we dun have any place in mind for our lunch.. so he suggested walking one round around the basement of suntec.. each of us choose 2 restaurants.. the 1 that both of us chose will be our lunch venue.. so...... after a few minutes.. we decided on NYDC.. that ys hor... dunno wat to eat... so i recommend him those oven-baked.. -.-" he ask me to decide for him in the end... then he flip the menu to the drinks section.. n he ask watz nice.. hahaha.. i choose those with the chef recommendation sign giv him... then he say.. i muz hav choosen the baked pasta with the similar sign too.. n guess wat?!! he's RIGHT! LOL. we have alrdy spend abt 10 min choosing wat to eat by then.. then we bet that the waitress is getting frustrated.. hahaha.. then he still wanna dare me.. saying that if i can finish the dessert.. he's going to pay for that.. n of cos! free one!! i order the mudpie la! hahaha.. finally we ask for the waitress to take our order.. n ys giv stupid faces.. im laughing like mad.. hahaha.. he's simply juz went mad that day..

our lunch is juz alright.. itz onli when the dessert was served.. well~ im damn FULL le!! itz a dare from him.. so i muz try my best to eat it up la.. n he keep laughing.. hmm~ the mudpie is like a rock!! omg! i poke my fork onto the pie.. i cant even take it out.. itz so hard! ys said im lousy.. then i ask him to poke let me see lor.. so.. he poke... "WAH!"... "ARGH! SO HARD!".... HAHAHA.. cos i cant finsh it myself la.. so he finish up for me lor..

WE R FULL!! omg~ im growing fat! hahah.. itz juz half an hour b4 the show start.. so we spend our time in Arcade.. hahahah.. try to get the mickey mouse soft toy.. cheater machine de!! >.<

After movie.. we got nowhere to go liao.. i suggested going orchard.. he say nth to do.. then i say go fly kite at marina bay.. but we like.. wan n dun wan like that.. so in the end nvr go.. then he suddenly ask if i go mt faber b4.. i replied "no" then he drove there.. cant even find a parking lot up at the mountain.. not that there's no parking area.. itz FULL!! so.. he drove slightly downhill.. found a free parking lot.. n we have to climb back to the top.. on the way.. take a few pics of the scenary la.. then i make a fuss that we dun hav camera.. sad lor.. itz like so nice!! all we hav itz juz hp cam.. haiz..

then after abt 45 min.. we went to Tampopo hav our dinner.. ee.. full house sia~ Kelly seems a bit unhappy.. n yet.. i still tell her im here to eat.. she replied me with her face damn black that i gotta wait till 930 lor.. im like.. uhoh.. should we juz leave? but if we leave.. itz not that nice either.. cos i will leave tampopo with that uncomfort in me.. so we waited till 930.. ys n i spent 30 min in Kino upstairs.. he bot a comic which he think that its cover itz kind of cool..

so the clock hit 925 on my watch.. we went back to the restaurant.. itz still so many ppl there!! but at least got free table.. jeannette then giv us a seat.. n cos we hav alrdy decided on wat to eat.. we juz ordered within 1 min.. n think that should be the last order of the day.. our ramen come in in juz a short period of time.. hee.. ys say Kyusu ramen very nice wor.. n that toot.. he tried tasting the ginger itself.. n he goes "wah!" he went speechless n reach for his tea.. hahaha... his face was damn funny..

after saying gdbye to my colleagues.. we went home sweet home le.. itz tiring.. damn tiring..

n here i m today.. feeling that i living my life aimlessly.. wat my ah ma had expected of me.. shows no trace of moving to that expectation.. i kind of regetted a lot.. now.. im wondering if i should move on studying or proceeding on to working life.. haiz.. im confused! >.<

HOT Events!

2006-02-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

Alright alright.. itz time for me to update my blog… hahaha.. I can see cobwebs filling the page le.. =x

Apologies.. really very busy these 2 weeks… after CNY.. have to 烦 over ADD stuff.. haiz… then.. juz last Saturday.. itz ADD.. wake up.. have to prepare go for makeup n hairdo liao… SOOOOOoooooooo busy!!!! But then.. 忙到好玩 hee.. =P hmm.. here r some of the pics taken during that night at Swiss Merchant Court Hotel.. =)

After the function has ended.. I went to the hotel rm slp… till next early morning… I rush back home.. put my stuff.. wash up n prepare go Sentosa with my 2 cousins from indo… lol. Chiongster wor!!! LOL. Had fun at Sentosa wor.. my first time take the chairlifting.. first time ride on Singapore cable car.. I sound a bit ku ku rite?!! But these r really my first time.. hehehe..

Then on wed.. farewell function le.. hee.. have fun taken pics… =P I will miss u ppl!! DCP3A26… juz having a few more days spend together… my dear clzmates.. do treasure this precious moments…

I would like to dedicate Graduation Song by Vitamin C to my fellow poly frenz.. all of u ppl hav been great… do look at the lyrics.. =)

Graduation (Friends Forever) Lyrics
by Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

2006-01-31T15:44:00.000+08:00

JERKS!

Desserted

2006-01-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

The one happiness is to shut one's door upon a little room, with a table before one, and to create; to create life in that isolation from life.

i feel... im juz a trash can showing in others' show...
crushed..
abandoned...
how pathetic can it be?!!

hope im not so jia lat la.. hope so~

my FYP juz completed.. but im still as stress... when can i be released?!!
-wondering-

how is my life like these recent days?!! well~ itz sort of like a routine.. sch, work, or headache over ADD n finance wise... haiz!

yest at work.. another DISASTER! grr~ dunno how did it happen oso.. teapot spilled over a jap customer's back.. n where m i ne?!! juz next to where the teapot was... n of cos.. i din noe it spill.. it was till the customer jumped from his seat then im still blur blur stand there wondering y.. n another second.. i realized the teapot in front of me was toppled.. i panicked! n shouted "OMG!" n without thinking... i juz said "sorry" repeatedly to the customer.. reason?!! cos im standing there... if i din go admit itz my fault... who will?!! well~ another thing.. is cos of giving a gd customer service.. honestly.. im holding back my tears then.. cos i dunno wat to do... i ran to Kelly n tell her.. but she's busy.. but in the end.. i went back to the customer.. the boss was there le.. n Tan-san said everything settled.. n Yumi ask me to relax... how can i?!! wat if the tea happens to be real hot?!! Fortunately, the pot is near to empty le.. but still i feel damn bad..

n the working day b4 yest... i scalded my hand with hot water pouring from the boiler... im really wadz up with me?!! m i daydreaming away at work or wat?!! n i tot no one will noticed the boiling water was spilling over onto my hand.. haiz.. Lao Da saw... =/ kind of embarrassing but.. im in pain le.. so nvr really bother.. perhaps im juz suay...

hopefully i will be able to get my pay for this mth.. cos tricia say i may not be able to get this mth... i forgot the reason le.. something like my card was not sent?!! something like that ba..

hmm.. xueer.. i will cont with that chain when i hav the mood to do ba..

what do i wan?!!

2006-01-14T01:40:00.000+08:00

suddenly after watch a number of episodes of "Wonderful Life".. i hav a qn for myself.. "wadz my goal in life?!!"

martians cant understand venusians.. juz like venusians cant understand martians.. making assumptions of each other.. isnt it tiring?!! wonder y humans r created in this manner... COMPLICATIONS OF LIFE AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! GRR!!!

:::POOF:::

im TIRED!!!!

2006-01-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

AHHH!! -yawnz-
so tired!!! lol.

FYP!!! argh!!! my grp haven hand in... feeling so stressed.. i juz wanna hav a break!!

juz returned from my clz chalet on sunday.. itz a 2 days 1 night chalet. from saturday to sunday morning nia.. lol. not much happen ba.. juz that i seems to be in the rain most of the time.. hahah.. hope i wun get sick these few days jiu hao liao.. lol. n everyone said i slept the most.. hahaha.. =x but i slp on the wooden bench lor... see.. guys in my clz r juz soooo. HAIZ!! lol. except for a few la.. hahahah cos they slept either on the floor or nvr slp.. lol.

today after sch.. went to Harbor Front Centre to see see com.. came across 2... not bad.. 1 is Pentium 4, with 3.4GHz processor, 512DDR II Ram, 160GB HDD, DVD Dual Drive, ATI Radeon 256MB bla bla.. and 17" LCD monitor... this set cost $1999...

another one is similar.. juz a few diff.. that is.. it is Pentium D with Dual-core 3.0 processor, 1GB DDR II Ram, can watch TV n 19" LCD monitor.. lol. this costs $2599.. which is more worth ar?!! hahaha..

then juz abt to go home.. i took pics of our chinese horoscopes for the family of 4!! hee.. =P

Disappointed

2006-01-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

im not in a rather gd mood recently.. itz juz the beginning of Year 2006.. n unhappy things happen around me.. this is wat i least expect..

within days.. my bro starts changing in his attitude.. he’s getting more n more rebellious le.. my parents cant even do anything.. wadeva he said.. we chose to believe him.. Trust is impt… almost every night juz a few days b4 xmas eve.. he always come home VERY LATE! My mum was so worried like mad.. but.. that idiot either off his hp or nvr pick up his phone.. n im so fed up with him… wanna come home late oso nvr call n inform us.. my dad reaches his limit on New year eve.. this is wat happen..

I went esplanade countdown with Yong Hao.. I reached home around 1.30am.. I was on the phone with Kel.. when my mum come in.. guess wat time izzt?!! Itz 3am in the morning on the first day of 2006! N my bro wasn’t home yet.. I hang up the line with kel.. then I called my bro… no one ans.. I pressed the “redial” button again n again.. for abt more than 5 times.. no ans.. the whole family is awake.. my dad was fuming… then the phone rang.. itz my bro.. he said he’s working.. n he’s required to stay overnight.. all of us juz let him be.. n in the morning.. Im not really sure wat happen… but I heard ppl quarrelling in the living rm.. 1st day of 2006.. wat a “gd” sign~ n I went out to see watz happening… my dad was scolding my bro.. wondering y?!!

My parents actually suspected that my bro went to sentosa for countdown party.. n he lied that he’s working.. y on earth my bro brought his slipper n board shorts go work?! When he’s working as a waiter at Hilton hotel?!! N when my dad was scolding him.. my bro juz acted nth is happening.. he din even bother listening.. n he even say things that hurt my mum… for that moment.. I really feel like slapping him in front of my parents.. but.. somehow.. I juz dun think itz the right time to lecture him… but the words he said… is going to affect the whole family adversely..

This leads to wat my mum told me this morning b4 I go sch.. my dad is disappointed in my bro.. well~ so m i.. but the thing is.. is that over for the family of 4?!! Today im having a test.. n I haven finish studying.. but since after wat I heard from my mum.. I sense that everything is changing in my life.. the more I think.. the more im drifted away from the study mood.. n yes.. im upset.. worried abt the future.. watz going to happen to us n all?!! Im scared!

In front of my frenz.. I display “nth has happen to me” de face… n today.. I juz suddenly cried to xueer.. (thx for listening to me..) n dor.. (thx for providing me with tissue paper).. at least.. I knew that there’s still LOVE in this world…

When I reached home.. I heard another story from my mum.. n now.. I hav no faith in this family anymore.. im sad obviously.. but this time round.. I din shed a tear.. I juz wanna be prepared for the worst day to come.. at least.. I wun feel lost alone..

Though I may not hav a great start of the year.. I still wanna wish fellow readers a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! May u all hav a great year ahead! Cheers!

meaningful!!

2005-12-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我站在你面前你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离
不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你
而是知道彼此相爱却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
而是明明无法阻挡思念却还要装作还不在意你

世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法阻挡思念却还要装作还不在意你
而是对爱你的人筑起了一道无法跨越的沟壑

-quoted from xy-

im lazy to update my blog le.. com alwayz got prob!! argh!!! >.<

Alwayz wanted to noe...

2005-12-14T18:13:00.000+08:00

b Leo (23 July - 23 August)

Traditional Leo Traits
Generous and warm-hearted
Creative and enthusiastic
Broad-minded and expansive
Faithful and loving
Pompous and patronizing
Bossy and interfering
Dogmatic and intolerant

Interests

The dramatic arts, entertaining, dance, design, fashion, beauty, giving people hope and inspiration

Hates

Being ignored

Suitable Careers

Actor, dancer, teacher, youth worker, professional sports person, astrologer, politician, commissioner, jeweler, managing director

a typical leo to throw her temper without sufficient tots? perhaps im one of them... but i cried each n everytime when i scolded someone... sometimes i oso dun understand myself..

WHO M I?!!

m i being ridiculous sometimes?!! maybe i m...
m i disliked by others?!! probably..
m i like the above traits abt Leo?! the last 3 pts r so true~

thatz wat make ppl say... i 钩起来卖... how will i response to this?!! i was speechless actually.. but after several tots.. i asked myself.. "y ppl say that?! m i being arrogant?"
i cant ans to my own qn.. onli ppl around me will noe.. i cant anyhow make self-judgement.. but the immediate tot i hav in mind is.. "thatz me~ wadeva u wanna say abt me.. i dun care a damn" well.. i muz say.. if someone nvr care a little tiny bit of how ppl look at u... these r all LIES!!

sometimes i really m confused abt wat ppl said.. wat i hear n all... diff ppl r like delivering to me diff kind of languages of the same meaning of words.. but juz bcos im a foreigner to those languages.. we hav communication breakdown..

on the way home.. deep tots rush into my mind..
y m i like that in the first place?!! izzt that i hav changed a lot.. since the B******?

think think think... i suddenly seems to hav touched the cage in myself.. i came to realize i hav locked myself up away from reality...

i still cant put away with wadeva should hav put away long long ago.. there's still doubts lying within me abt the B******.. i do need time for myself to sort things out... i cant carry on acting this way... which will offend ppl around me unconsciously..

however.. there r still happenings n some ppl i cant bring myself to really forgiv them.. juz like Zj has posted in his blog.. "many things been going on lately, major changes and so on. in class, see all those "conflicts" etc...see all those major changes...haiz...wat going on man? juz by looking at those make mi kinda hate going sch."

well.. wat i hav gotta say is.. there's limit to everything.. juz like.. some jokes.. i can take it.. but some that is too much.. i will juz express to u that i dun like it... n some conflicts r juz inevitable..

wat Mrs Tan said in clz.. "it will be something gd if ppl around u actually respect u.."
i agree to her totally..

Life is the movie you see through your own eyes. It makes little difference what's happening out there. It's how you take it that counts.

i had a Bad day!!!

2005-12-10T18:14:00.000+08:00

2nd day of work... everything was fine.. till the last hr of work... i've made a grave mistake.. i SPILLED ramen soup while clearing the table.. not onli my leg kenna the spicy soup.. the customer's pants oso... n his ART WORK n newly bot ARMANI bag under the table!! omg~!! it was disastrous... i apologised immediately.. again n again.. but he's still so furious abt it..

i went to clean up the mess on my jeans.. feeling guilty abt wat happen... getting prepared to be scolded by Kelly, the supervisor. but the first person to scold me is Kelvin la..

then Kelly asked me n another fellow waitress, who was oso involved, into the kitchen.. ya.. think we owe her an explanation.. so i explained to her wat happen actually..

"im the one who was clearing the table.. im holding on to the tray lying on the side of the table with my right hand.. my left hand was busy removing unwanted bowls from table to tray.. then when clearing.. another waitress come help me out by removing the bowls onto the same tray lor.. in juz a second.. the tray suddenly lose itz balance.. it slipped off my hands.. "

haiz.. a lesson learnt.. Kelly told us.. there's no need for another person to help out clear the table when the customer is still around.. and somemore.. the table was full of utensils at that moment..

i feel rather bad.. kelly kenna scolding from the customer.. haiz.. but i oso noe how the customer feel la.. of cos he will wan a compensation... which cause kelly to be in a dilemma..

i've caused so much trouble to the frontline.. haiz!! wat should i do sia?!! tml working.. oso.. how m i going to face kelly under this kind of situation?!! Armani bag leh... n his art work..
-feeling guilty-

then after work.. from liang court.. i walked to the OG at chinatown alone.. to see the gown my mum mentioned.. after that... i walked to Outram station take train home..

really a bad day... =(

here's a song i love it very much recently..

Bad Day by Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Resilience?!! YES! im dark chocolate!

2005-12-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

zz.. im very FULL!!! lol. im being bo liao once again~ hee.. =P

Your Birthdate: August 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested.
You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them.
Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others.
You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself.

Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence

Your weakness: Suspicion of others

Your power color: Eggplant

Your power symbol: Spade

Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone.
You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.
Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

How Well Do You Understand Men?

You Are a Good Girl

You are 70% Good and 30% Bad
Generally speaking, you're a very good girl.
(But you don't have us totally fooled!)

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.
You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force.
You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle.
An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way
You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to
Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets
No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

-yawn-

2005-12-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

omg! no matter how much i sleep.. im still so tired... zz... physically n mentally tired.. this is terrible~ lol.

hoho.. haven been updating for the last few days wor.. juz lazy~ hee.. =x

Wednesday
a day when i anyhow throw my temper.. hmm.. sry ppl..

after my pqm test, i immediately left sch n meet yp, hm n xy at marina sq... lol. seems like city hall is our usual hang out place le.. hahaha.. went watch harry potter with them.. lol. nice show wor.. so sad lor.. Cedric Diggory died.. :'(

after the show.. we went Carrefour cos the 3 gals wanted to buy FBT shorts.. lol. n we had our dinner at Pizza Hut.. spend so much time deciding on wat to eat.. hahaha.. as usual la.. =P

went Esplanade after that.. juz a while cos itz getting late le.. haha.. took pics.. =)

Edited

Thursday
i skipped the first lesson of the day~ hee.. too tired after the previous night out.. =x

after sch.. went JE play pool with angela, zj, eric, jar, kiap, pk n darryl.. hehe.. before start playing.. we went to see ice skating there.. first time i actually enter the place.. omg!! with the Xmas songs playing.. ppl skating gracefully.. im like.. "oh my! so romantic over here~" n the rest were like.. "omg.. rebec is crazy~"
-.-" roar~ itz really something really nice ma.. too bad.. i dunno how to ice skate.. lol. =P

so we proceed on to pool.. hoho!!!
1st round: rebec vs darryl (rebec won!)
2nd round: rebec vs pk (rebec won!)
3rd round: rebec vs zj (rebec won!)
4th round: rebec vs eric (eric won!)
5th round: rebec vs eric again (rebec won!)
6th round: rebec vs zj (zj won!)
7th round: rebec vs angela (rebec won!)

hoho.. seems like my skills hav improve wor.. =P thx for ys for teaching me a little skill and thx cartoon oso.. lol.

today.. after sch.. went Sim Lim with zj, yh n zx to meet eric n pk.. oh man~ lol. i hav been eating loads.. scary.. juz like a pig.. lol. i ate soft squid head n curry puff from Oh Chang Kee, 2 Corochan, 1 rotiboy n blueberry ripple ice-cream.. hahaha...

after eating up everything.. went walk walk around.. see dresses for ADD.. that idiot zj... he wan me to try on the dress.. then say if i try on.. he will promise to go for ADD.. so i tried on.. but i think that guy.. aRgh!! he's going to break that promise lor!! ROAR!!

oh ya.. we took a few pics.. lol.
i juz love Taz!! *huggies*

me n Buttercup

yh with the kiddy cap.. n we kenna scolded by salesgirl.. lol. =x

pk with the big phone!

aaaaaaRRRRRRRRrggggggggHHHHH!!!

2005-11-30T12:07:00.000+08:00

candle lighted..
melody of canon in D goes...
orange aroma filled my rm..

thatz a way to calm myself down..
alone..

watz my emotion currently like?!

here comes my mood swings again~!
frustrated..
depressed..
confused..
lost..
empty..

for no reason?!!

Fundamentally, all writing is about the same thing; it's about dying, about the brief flicker of time we have here, and the frustration that it creates.

not even a little mood left for me to study..
wat m i going to do now?! slp? but how abt my quiz tml?! *sigh*

peace out!

Small small World

2005-11-29T19:26:00.000+08:00

hee... juz back home..

oops! sry xueer.. made u cry today.. lol. =P but im so evil.. xueer crying.. and im laughing like mad.. hahaha.. =x

hoho.. where did i went after sch?!! lol. i meet xy at the main library.. n off we went to orchard!! has been a mth since we last met..

first of all.. went to fareast eat ramen!! yay!! finally! i gotta eat my spicy la la ramen!! wahahaha.. so spicy yet yummy.. think im kind of a freak to hav added the chilli spices.. but itz juz so delicious!! hoho.. =P n of cos.. xy n i update each other abt ourselves.. lol. lotsa lotsa to tok.. but 2 gals is left out.. oops! haha.. but im looking forward to tml!! yuppie! watching Harry Potter with the 3 gals!! WOOHOO~~

hmm.. it such a coincident!! lol. im being poached again for modeling thingy.. this time is a diff agency.. nth interesting abt that.. but the funny thing is.....
the so called "poacher" approached me.. tok tok tok.. and passed me a name card.. hahaha.. guess wat?!! at that moment.. im thinking.. "how on earth she noe my name?" then i realized.. itz not that she noe my name.. the "Rebecca" written on the name card is she herself la!! alamak!! i laughed.. n showed xy, "look! same name as me leh!" maybe i said it too loud.. the gal replied me, "izzt?!" then i smiled.. she asked for my number.. and said, "so u r Rebecca oso ar?!" hahaha.. then i answered her as accordingly.. hahaha.. the world is juz so small!
it's a small small world~

xy n i shop shop around.. i go see watch... n xy juz happened to notice a necklace.. she has the urge to purchase it.. but she wanna save money.. then in the end.. she forced me to get out of that shop.. -.-"

after a while.. we took a train home together.. n that xy.. bth her!! she's getting lamer!! omg~ zz... lol. hope tml.. she will behave herself.. hahaha.. =P

huimin! gd luck for ur last paper tml!! hee.. =D cya tml!

where r they?

2005-11-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
im getting lazier n lazier as days go by... dun feel like doing anything.. watching movie/tv is still the best activity for me.. maybe.. chatting with gd frenz oso not bad...

yest.. went PS watch SPL with ys.. then very conveniently.. my bro asked ys to lobang him to PS too.. zz.. my bro was going for California gym interview then... so both of us were in ys's car... cant believe my bro was so frenly.. he actually initiated saying "hi" to ys.. thatz too not him liao.. hahah..

then upon reaching the entrance of carpark at PS.. my bro left for his interview... we went shopping around b4 catching that movie.. it is a nice show wor~ lol.

reach home for dinner.. tried doing my reports.. but end up chatting... then my emotions suddenly juz go so wrong.. haiz.. anyway.. thx william for cheering me up with his *ahem* chinese~ hahaha..

tot thru a lot last nite.. think.. i noe wat im doing n the reasons for the responses.. juz be happy n not to bother abt those stupid stuff le.. not worth depressed over that too.. =)

-fertilizing my piece of land-
[ooo... the grass r getting greener!..]
haha.. laming.. =x

-continue from the last post-

2005-11-24T18:38:00.000+08:00

sry abt that... my com problematic again~ n i reformat it again n again n again.. pissing me off~ aRgh!! hope it's really alright now...

as i was saying...
on tues.. after sch.. went orchard with kel, xueer n zx... lol. took photo with the giant Xmas tree.. hehe...

Gigantic Xmas tree

me n xueer

me n zx

me n kel

our reflections

then after that.. i went over to ah gong's house for dinner.. coincidently.. saw Don on the way there... hahaha.. greeting each other.. "how's life?" then we went separate ways saying gdbye.. =P

after dinner, my uncle, Marcus, drove me n my mum home.. with my little cousin, Tammy. she's so cute lor.. humming along with the chinese songs played in the car... well.. she's english speaking de la... then she say chinese.. very cute.. hahaha.. btw.. she's only 3 years old.. hahaha... cant believe that in the car.. i actually slept thru the journey home.. zz... PIG!! hahahah.. =x

hmph! not forgetting wat happen in clz!! i wanna sue someone who stole my pencil case!! ROAR!!! guess who's the thief?!!!

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he's the culprit!!

he is YQ!!! he's holding on to my pen!!! ROAR~

Freezing Weather~!!!

2005-11-23T19:29:00.000+08:00

BRRrrr~~ *shivers* im freezing!! argh!! n my cough has not recover!! i miss my CHOCOLATES!!! 3 weeks with no chocolate bars!! >.<

dunno y im so tired recently.. overslept n late for lessons.. still slp in clz somemore.. lol. =x

-to be continued-

Personality Test

2005-11-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion		50%
Stability		33%
Orderliness		53%
Accommodation		50%
Interdependence		50%
Intellectual		50%
Mystical		56%
Artistic		50%
Religious		30%
Hedonism		23%
Materialism		36%
Narcissism		30%
Adventurousness		56%
Work ethic		50%
Self absorbed		56%
Conflict seeking		43%
Need to dominate		43%

Romantic		50%
Avoidant		63%
Anti-authority		56%
Wealth		36%
Dependency		56%
Change averse		56%
Cautiousness		43%
Individuality		56%
Sexuality		36%
Peter pan complex		50%
Physical security		56%
Physical Fitness		70%
Histrionic		56%
Paranoia		50%
Vanity		56%
Hypersensitivity		63%
Female cliche		36%

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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.

trait snapshot:

paranoid tendencies, irritable, anxious, fidgety, dependent, worrying, emotionally sensitive, prone to regret, depressed, second guesses self, somewhat fragile, dislikes change, prefers organized to unpredictable, suspicious, phobic, craves attention, not a risk taker, low self control, very sensitive to criticism, unadventurous, does not make friends easily, defensive, obsessive, low self esteem

我傻吗? + out with Cartoon

it makes me really wonder... m i 傻? quite a couple of ppl say i m... but i dunno the reason wat make them say that.. haiz.. nvm ba.. i will look on the bright side~ =) 傻人有傻福! haha... sound stupid though.. lol. =x i oso dunno y im alwayz 烦 abt little stuff... is this one of the reasons i m 傻?!! lol. sound so absurd.. hahaha.. brr.. dun think le la!! hahaha.. back to the update abt today...

itz weekend again!!! juz need to enjoy myself... meet with Mr Cartoon at city hall... lol. b4 that.. saw val on the train.. followed by eric n kiap.. they r meeting the rest at later time ba..

practically... we juz walked from citylink to suntec... went to take a look at the World Cyber Games.. but nth interesting over there.. so cont to walk.... then went into "Times" i saw the book that yq has told me abt... the title is "Blink" read a few pages of it... hmm.. but a bit chim for me sia.. hahaha =x

after that cartoon went to eat tom yam mee hoon kway opp suntec... (hmm.. izzt show tower? i cant rmb.. =x) after eating went back to suntec again... lol. n.. hahaha... u noe la... cartoon sure go to mini toons buy toony stuff.. hahaha.. SWEETS!

"wan some sweets?!" cartoon offered

"YUMMIE! My favourite!"

eat... walk... go Carrefour buy nestle yogurts for each... then took a bus to somewhere near PS there play pool.. (omg! im such a failure.. i dunno the exact names of places i went.. but i still noe how to go there.. grr.. ) my pool accuracy is like atrocious! ROAR!! i missed a lot today... nvm... cartoon still stronger than me.. zz..

then went PS Long John's Silver for dinner... after that cartoon (aka SW) planned to shop for camp stuff in Carrefour.. walk walk walk....

Cartoon tots, "haiz! boring life~ booking in camp soon again~"

"y cant i find the stuff i wan?!!"

"i dun believe i cant find it.."

cartoon stop buying.. "this is disappointing! i cant find the stuff i wan here! Let's go!"

in the end.. he bot nth.. n we home sweet home!! haha.. thatz all folks!

Why Men Lie

2005-11-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

One day, while a woodcutter was cutting a branch of a tree above a river, his axe fell into the river. When he cried out, the Lord appeared and asked, "Why are you crying?" The woodcutter replied that his axe has fallen into water, and he needed the axe to make his living.

The Lord went down in the water and reappeared with a golden axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. The woodcutter replied, "No." The Lord again went down and came up with a silver axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. Again, the woodcutter replied, "No." The Lord went down again and came up with an iron axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. "Yes", he replied. The Lord was pleased with the man's honesty and gave him all three axes to keep, and the woodcutter went home happy.

Some time later the woodcutter was walking with his wife along the riverbank, and his wife fell into the river. When he cried out, the Lord again appeared and asked him, "Why are you crying?" Oh Lord, my wife has fallen into the water!"

The Lord went down into the water and came up with Angelina Jolie. "Is this your wife?" the Lord asked. "Yes," cried the woodcutter.

The Lord was furious. "You lied! That is an untruth!" The woodcutter fell to his knees and cried, "Oh, forgive me, Lord. It is a misunderstanding. You see, if I had said 'no' to Angelina Jolie, You would have come up with Catherine Zeta-Jones. Then if I also said 'no' to her, you would have come up with my wife. Had I then said 'yes,' you would have given me all three. Lord, I am a poor man, and am not able to take care of all three wives, and I love my wife such that I don't want her to share me with anyone, so THAT'S why I said yes to Angelina Jolie."

The moral of this story is:
Whenever a man lies, it is for a good and honourable reason, and for the benefit of others..
MOSTLY his wife!

(juz a story sharing session.. )

Who Am I?!

2005-11-15T18:18:00.000+08:00

something that i wanna share.. yq wrote an interesting on my name.. very sweet..
(^-^)

Rely on fate & destiny to pave her life
Embrace the power of faith to work its magic
Breathe the air with another sense of hope
Embark a new journey in search for happiness
Counting on the big man above
Counting on all sources for tenderness
Am I still on my journey, walking alone or walking with... ...

-credits to yq-

is that me?!! up to u ppl to comment on it.. =)

Congratulations Rebec, you are...

Finicky Feline of finickyfeline.liquidblade.com

You may seem sweet on the outside but behind you hide a sharpened claw. You have the observation skills of a forensic detective and can see right through people easily. You attract attention, both good and bad, but more bad than good. You've seen more assholes in life than a proctologist. The bad ones tries to screw you over but quickly learnt that its a bad move because you enjoy screwing them back accordingly.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

HO HO HO!!

2005-11-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

hmm? is santa claus coming to town?!! hahaha.. not yet not yet.. but soon! hee.. orchard has itz deco on.. so nice!! *ding ding*

guess wat?!! HAIZ!! Jane Green n Nicholas Sparks hav published out their new books at the same time.. ARGH!! but i can onli dream on getting it now.. SAVE $$ ah!!

Life Swap by Jane Green [$33+]
At First Sight by Nicholas Sparks (hardcover) [$28+]

HAIZ!!! nvm.. 忍! haha.. save money for the dress i saw.. hee.. perhaps itz too early to make the final decision for that dress.. so i will cont to look around.. hee..

well~ im juz back from my ah gong's place... my dad treat everyone go eat steamboat juz nearby ah gong's house.. haha.. juz b4 going home.. snap a few pics..

Little Tammy posing for me

4 little cousins with their funny faces

my ah gong! itz a SNAP!! =x

back from indo

2005-11-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

im back... lol. glad that i went back indo.. reluctant of coming back home.. hahaha.. feel so empty here.. dun understand y either.. lol

actually there's nth much to update abt.. i juz went indo to visit relatives.. miss my cousins..

hav a great start of sch life this sem.. =) everything's going smoothly.. hee..

grr!! time to save money!! for everything i wanna spend on.. hahaha.. ADD de theme is out!! HURRAY!! but wth~ ROAR!! "ANGELS & DEVILS" this is.. grrr... no gowns for me... but itz alright.. costume wise is up to our creativeness.. hahaha.. at swiss cottage.. oops! wrong! itz swiss hotel! lol.
-scratch head-
got any idea where izzt?!! lol. =x

hmm.. should i dress like an angel or devil?!! lol. money saving is a more impt issue now.. hahaha.. anyway.. to go or not to go is another matter.. still a lot of days to go.. the dinner n dance is held on 4th feb.. so i can slowly plan the finance wise n the dress code.. haha..

Frenship will alwayz be part of life

2005-10-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

YOZ!!! hee.. juz back with my newly-reformated com once again.. idiotic com i hav sia.. HAIZ!! not a gd night yest... luckily.. got ys cheering me up today... =P

well~ went Chinatown first to buy his CD.. parked his car at some "ulu" place.. seem like bukit timah hill to me.. hahaha... after that headed to our next destination that is SUNTEC! haha.. itz a more urban place lor.. hahaha.. then... of cos!! went to buy the WONKA CHOCOLATE!!! YUMMY!!! ok~ i may sound like a kid at that moment.. hahaha.. ys keep laughing at me oso.. =x i bot.. 2 small bars(me n ys) n 2 big ones(me n bong)hahah... typical choco freak.. =P

then shop around n go arcade b4 our movie.. 再說一次我愛你.. er.. obviously, i cried.. cried till my eyes red.. cried till ys ask me "r u ok?!" so how serious do u think it can be?!! haha.. juz silly me.. then went esplanade... hoho!! took some pics of the scenery.. tried taking pics of ys n me together.. but.. sian.. my skill damn lousy.. FAILED!! hahaha.. then on our way home.. took some pics while his driving.. hahaha.. =P at least.. im playing.. im happy.. =)

well.. now back to serious stuff ba.. haha.. fate really played me.. it has my com down when something occurs last night.. im not there... how can i?!! haiz..

actually things arent that complicated as it may seem... ppl r not as scary as u think.. frenship is not that unreliable as it seem.. if u believe, bliss wun be a dream..

sem 2 is starting.. poly life is ending.. y such terrible things r happening?!!

something is lacking somewhere... which all of us cant pick it out from the "deep ocean of frenship".. i think no one will ever noe.. neither do i..

DCP2B26 sem 1 year 2004.. wat kind of clz do u think ppl will see us as?!! cheerful, noisy, playful?! how abt DCP2A26 sem 2 year 2005?!! lethargic, rebelious, lifeless? maybe im wrong.. so plz think back.. how abt last sem?!! DCP3B26 sem 1 year 2005? i dun wanna make any comments anymore.. wat i noe... im tired.. absolutely tired of that kind of sch life.. wadeva im wishing for now.. is juz a nice clz all of us can be in.. unity, communicative kind of DCP3A26 with little conflicts, misunderstandings n most imptly.. HATRED!!

my bro said something today to me.. "how old alrdy?!! still "i hate u.. u hate me"".. REMINDER: we hav currently reached the age of 19...
-recalling back-
indeed.. some of us still hav those child-like thinking.. i admit that im like that too.. but itz alright.. all of us will hav done something wrong or foolish.. juz treat the outcome as a lesson learnt n avoid making the same mistakes.. forgiving is one gd policy in life.. =)

abt things that happened last night.. honestly.. i wun support anyone.. both hav their rights n wrongs.. juz a matter of how those 2 wonderful hands clap together to make loud applause.. who ever wish to see 2 frenz leaving each others' side?!! ever think of how other "audience" frenz of urs will feel?!! tell u... itz will be one of our horrible nightmares!

another thing i hav to say is... true frenz cant be stolen from one's side.. if one did nth unforgivable, no worries.. frenz will be there for u! if frenz leave one's side by themselves, thatz it!! not true frenz anymore.. but still r frenz.. (haha.. wadeva it is.. frenship r not so easily breakable de la.. y make a sad ending when u can end it happily?!!)

ok la.. if i say somemore.. i wil flood today's post liao..
but hold on!! im not finishing yet.. my fellow clzmates!! we r graduating in a sem's time.. itz my habit to let ppl noe how i view each one of my clzmates as.. so... im gonna start my overview of my clzmates.. but first of all, let me apologise first if u feel offended from wad i will to say.. cos it will be a frank n honest one.. (frank n honest same meaning anot?!! hahaha =x) APOLOGIES!!

HERE GOES~~ (names will be in alphabetical order)

angela lao gong: cheerful, mature, crazy, very "on" de.. someone who understands my little habits the most in clz..

denise: rich-family gal, classy, stylish, ang moh, at times can be crazy.. serious at work.. dangerous cos i cant interpret wad is on her mind..

Doris: too quiet at times!! lack of confidence in herself.. understanding, trustable, with a almost 100% pure mind.. =x

Ee chuan: lousy time management but noe how to priortise stuff.. independent.. a gd leader in fyp grp! =)

Huda(1st fren in poly): very "yo-yo" haha.. quite demanding at serious stuff like work.. someone who has high-expectation of herself..

Hui Ting: hey!! u r late again!! hahaha.. juz a siao char bo i noe of.. she very "sui bian" in anything de la..

Jarrich 乌龟: think a lot, dangerous too.. with a mind hard to read

Jolyn: rich family gal, alwayz making sure she's looking gd.. may not seem as complicated as she may look..

Junyong: ROAR!! complain king leh!! hahaha.. super noisy fellow.. easy offend ppl.. with a simple heart but an idiotic mouth.. =x

Kelvin: 色! with a lot of stupid actions.. understanding, n he can 忍 over sudden stuff

MJ 老鼠: (cant deny the fact that he's my ex.. but he's a gd guy..) secretive at times, noisy, smart, with little initiative, act shy but he's not

Sam: very "on", dunno him well..

Soo Yee: crazy gal la.. hahaha.. dun be deceived by her looks!!

Sylvia: sociable, someone alwayz busy with her own stuff.. dunno her well too..

Valerie: too dependent on guys in the gang, someone who simply wan others' care n concern, appear to be cheerful

Xueer gf: a gossip-monger, her actions speak louder than words, frank, happily in love

Yan Han: playful freako~, still a kid.. haha

Zheng Jie: he juz not updated on wadz happening around him.. game freak.. reliable fren

Zhi Xiang: joker, entertainer.. cheering ppl up will make him happy...

WELL~~ thatz all.. hope i nvr miss out anyone.. feel free to giv me the overview on me.. =) honest n gd/bad comments r welcomed!

not meant to be

2005-10-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

wanted to seek for some consultation.. but dunno who to look for... juz say here a bit n there a bit... thatz my life..

yes.. im unhappy...

..............over some little stupid stuff again~

not that i wan it.. i juz cant take it...

all abt initiative n responsibility... n most imptly.. PRIDE!

do i sound serious.. i think i do.. haha.. i juz hav that thinking.. human beings r so confusing... y copycats calling others "copycats"? y backstabbers calling others "backstabbers"?

will an angel call a devil "angel"?!! no of cos~ thatz cos angels r smart beings rite~ noe how to differentiate.. will a devil call an angel "devil"? yes perhaps~ devil r juz not happy that angel r living a gd life up there in heaven n ppl worship angels... unlike devils~

dun understand wat i say?!! nvm itz ok.. i dun understand myself...
that shows how complicated i m...

toking abt pride..
think that no matter u r a female or male... there should be pride in oneself ba.. one should learn to respect herself/himself b4 others respecting u...

juz a sudden tot..

maybe i will change one day... to the bad side.. who knows.. life is unpredictable, isnt it?! haha

will be gone after the next week... to somewhere so near yet so far... =)
will update again b4 i set off to my "heaven"..

ChaoTa!!

2005-10-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!!! lol. i become malay le la.. im burnt.. aRgh!! it hurts!! lol.

actually nth much to update de... juz wanna make xueer happy.. so update lor.. lol

y m i chao ta?!! hmm.. went sentosa on sat with val, dor, cg, eric, zj, jar, pk n darryl.. yuppie!! itz a SUNNY day!! HOT HOT sun.. played volleyball till wrist kenna bruised.. then no.. kenna sunburnt... but itz alright... i juz love it..

sch starting in a week's time.. sian ah~~!!

honestly this holiday quite happening for me ba... hmm.. but... not much im able to post in a blog.. hahah... so~ hmm.. thatz all folks!

暧昧

2005-10-19T01:16:00.000+08:00

u muz be thinking.. "wat a title?" hahah... i hav been hearing this word from everywhere n anywhere..

be it related to me.. or not.. itz seems to be so common around me.. yet.. at first.. i dun understand wat 暧昧 means.. ok.. i noe im stupid.. hahaha... even go Kbox.. oso sing this song.. itz nice la...meaningful too..

只能陪你到这里毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣想太多是我还是你我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局放遗憾的美丽停在这里

im more n more bothered from tots.. day by day.. but still hav to display that crazy me in front of everyone.. thatz the way of life ma... lol. but i will be alright de.. so dun worry..

btw.. i look uglier now le... i noe im ugly liao.. now is worse.. my hair.. cmi lor.. HAIZ!! nvm!! hair will grow!! hahaha..

received info that clz timetable out le.. hahaha.. gotta check out.. so that i can look for a part-time job.. cya~

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2005-10-16T12:00:00.000+08:00

PEACE PEACE PEACE!! im wanna be a peace seeker!! hav no idea... im so frustrated now over little stuff.. PEACE... rebec!! RMB!! no troubles!! aRgh!!

yest went out with the 3 gals... itz meant to be an advanced celebration for hm's bdae wor! SURPRISE!! we r surprised!! saw a diff hm lor.. a more feminine n pretty hm.. cant believe it.. she does look sweet yest.. with her new top.. her earrings~ omg! nice!! keep up the gd job.. hm~ haha.. everyone is changing.. n im still never-changing.. well.. i noe im being lame..

anyway went to KBox at cineleisure.. then go walk walk around b4 setting off to Tampopo (hm's n yp's ex-working place).. itz a jap restaurant.. we ate A LOT.. oh man.. so full after that.. enjoyed the japanese delicacy! anyway.. here to apologize to the gals.. im sry to hav become so quiet then.. hope nvr spoil the "high" mood of u all.. dui bu qi~

the above pic is i help hm edit de.. hahah.. -upon yp's request- making up a storyline.. hahaha

well.. back to wat i did last sunday?!! men xy met up to buy hm's prezzie.. we walk from orchard to somerset to PS to Marina Sq to Suntec to Bugis.. n thru the journey xy bot her flats, i bot my hp pouch, n each bot a dream-catcher necklace.. not forgetting hm's prezzie of cos.. a Dream-catcher! BIG one! hahaha..

ok.. i go rot again.. *wave* PEACE!

Emotions~

2005-10-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

I realize it's hard not to churn your problems and I'm not idealistically saying you shouldn't. Still, you can learn to manage your non-efficient thinking and emotions. Just learn to be as conscious of your *mental and emotional energy expenditures and returns* as you are conscious of your dollar expenditures and returns. Remember the mental and emotional budget sheet. If you *halfway* play with this concept, it can give you a new perspective on energy economy.

Managing our emotions increases intuition and clarity. It helps us self-regulate our brain chemicals and internal hormones. It gives us natural highs, the real fountain of youth we've been searching for. It enables us to drink from elixirs locked within our cells, just waiting for us to discover them.

experiencing a mess of emotions..
how terrible it can be..
nvr will u noe..
till u truthfully experience it..

im sry

2005-10-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

i hav realized something..
i think every causes to all my problems.. lies on me.. myself!! i cant communicate well with ppl afterall.. a different meaning will be brought across to the receiver..

but wadeva it is.. no one can understand another person fully.. perhaps itz no one's fault.. juz my fault.. i brought over the wrong meaning of words.. maybe itz juz me... being so brainless without understand others' feelings..

wat i can say now is onli a "sorry"...

guess i will hav to watch my words in future..

Busy Rebec?

2005-10-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

nope.. im not busy.. juz dun feel like blogging for that few days.. haha.. how's everything going?!! hmm.. come home.. sniff paint.. hahahah.. house painting till im feeling sick of the smell liao.. haiz.. let u ppl see a pic of my door b4 paint wor.. haha.. ugly~

then weekdays.. do FYP lor.. now quite broke sia.. spend my money on my hp le.. haiz.. sadded.

on sat, i went out with cartoon wor.. he's botak! hahah.. then keep wearing his snow cap.. hahah.. to hide his "hair" lol. =x well, we went Fish and Co. at PS there. glass house.. very nice wor.. my first time going there sia.. hahah.. we ordered 2 sets of fish n chips, on for each, n seafood platters for 1.. we shared.. i find the seafood platter is nicer wor.. hahah..

then slack around there b4 going nearby play pool. abt 8 plus.. i left for home.. then cartoon took train with me cos he's going his fren's chalet..

took a lot of photos of him la.. but i post this onli.. lol. got edit a pic for him.. let u all see ba..

thatz all for sat lor..

hmm.. as for sunday.. i will update u all some other day.. hahaha.. but at least.. our mission r complete!! hehe..

well.. today mark the ending of my favourite show "Pride" at least.. itz a happy ending.. so sweet of Halu!! if really got a guy like Halu exists.. i will definitely love him the deepest!! well~ MAYBE...

i wun forget their cheer!!

I am Iceman
We are Iceman
I get Champion
We get Champion
We win
Win win win!
Blue Scorpions go!!

going thru~

2005-10-06T18:06:00.000+08:00

val... i hav bot my phone liao.. hmm.. anyway.. even pk told me that b4... i hav finally decided on nokia le.. anyway.. i anti-samsung since dunno when liao.. so.. itz ok la... i wun regret getting that phone anyway.. got bluetooth enuff le.. lol. =P

this nokia phone.. sian.. been thru a lot of scoldings b4 getting that phone.. so i will definitely treasure that phone more than any other phone that i hav had.. hmmm.. i dunno wat to post le.. quite bothered with some stuff recently.. hmm.. hope i will get over everything once n for all..

b4 ending this post.. well~ thx to ee chuan n ht wor.. monday chat in MOS.. sort of more clear that wat the life is out there.. now n working life... problems faced by ppl.. wat kind of ppl r there in this world.. n everything la.. hmm.. somehow.. i realized that.. actually i hav not much regrets in life... i hav given my all to whoever that person should hav gotten.. i shouldnt hav use "regret" this word in the past... itz more of disappointment ba..

at least giving 100% love to the person u love will leave u with no regrets.. n itz a more terrible feeling to lose a person who love u than losing a person who dun love u ba..but wadeva it is.. i still think that everything takes 2 hands to clap lor.. so.. appreciate wad u hav now.. get over with all regrets u hav now n make sure u wun add to ur regrets in the future..

thatz all i have to say.. go bath le.. lol. =P

Blogspot is cocked up!!

2005-10-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

argh!! i see liao oso lazy to post.. not i got nth to post or dun wanna post... haiz!!

wel!! im damn busy after exam!! omg!! cant believe it.. i shag myself out with works, play, arguements and all types of leisure stuff.. im damn tired.. i think i hav to much to say ba.. hahaha...

but.. omg!! im so suay lor!! wanna buy hp for weeks le!! but something will crop up on that very day when everything is so well planned le.. haiz!! if not.. is my dad busy.. if not is my bro creating trouble.. then i need to clear the mess.. so fed up!! but.. still i will buy a hp one day.. btw.. not samsung anymore!! lol. now.. for me.. im ANTI-SAMSUNG!! lol. dun ask y.. cos u wun wanna noe y.. hahaha..

ok... time's up!! cya soon.. hope to change a new layout of my own SOOOooooooooooNNN... lol

PCCC!! my last paper of this sem!!

2005-09-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

wish me luck wish me luck!! >.< *pray hard*

last paper

2005-09-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

not feeling gd... Aki n Halu end le.. Game Over cos Aki's bf is back for her... haiz.. y izzt Halu juz say something that Aki alwayz wanted to hear from him?!! really dun understand... GUYS~~ HAIZ!!!

anway.. im left with the last paper le... that is PCCC.. but im slacking here once again.. Fri planning to go work... Thurs after paper dunno going out anot.. heard nth from the rest... then Sat.. i think will go out.. juz a matter with who ba.. hmm~ ok.. show u some pics my bro took with his hp..

moo moo

Dad n mum

thatz one of my forty cousins from indo

itz the little red devil from ys.. little black devil leh?!! lol

-abt the show-

2005-09-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

juz finished watching "Pride".. itz sad... really sad.. Halu met up with his long lost mum.. but his mum met up with him juz for money... sometimes i really dun understand things like this... watz actually true?!! everyone has something to hide from another person in life.. where's the frankness n honesty in humanity?

y love story alwayz like that?! when Halu n Aki juz started to get together.. Aki's bf is coming back, which will be shown in the next episode that is tml, spoiling the whole thing.. will Aki leave Halu?!! thatz the part i started tearing after some tots...

is Aki's bf too cruel to hav let Aki wait for him for 2 years without any contact with one another?!! or izzt Aki too foolish to hav done that?!! somehow i came to think that... y izzt guys hav to be so cruel to hav let gals wait?!! y muz they leave in the first place? it isnt abt testing the relationship at all... hav any of u guys think abt the consequences?!!

even though i said all this.. i guess as a female.. we gals really do hav weaknesses.. we r too soft-hearted when this kind of thing happen (that is when we r totally in love). isnt guys too cunning to hav made use of our weaknesses? perhaps im wrong abt that.. or rather MAYBE...

lets stay tune to the next episode of "Pride" tml..

out out out.. play play play!

2005-09-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

hahaha... with that *pt upwards* , title of my post, i think.. itz understood that i play thru the weekend le lor.. hehe..

was out with ys this sat... b4 meeting him.. went to tm with mum n bro.. bro buying hp ma.. nokia 3230... actually he bot it that day lor.. then i bot another pair of ear studs.. blue stars!! hehe... after that.. ys come fetch me... luckily im not so toot enuff to be waiting for him at the other road.. hahaha.. then we go pump car oil at the nearest petrol station.. ya.. i bot chocolates for our movie later.. hahaha..

reach marina sq.. bot tickets for "The Myth" while waiting for time to pass, we go walk walk lor... hahaha.. guess who we saw?!!! bryan from channel U.. the cupid show!! then ys say better go hide.. so we end up at arcade... played puzzle fighter.. n of cos! i won!! woohoo! hee.. =x after that.. cos we were hungry.. so went around look for finger food.. zz.. saw the media again.. hahaha.. then ys say they wun come to us de.. so dun need worry..so buy our own food le.. go play pool.. then to our movie le.. the show was damn nice!! though a bit violent.. thatz the part where i actually cried.. itz still romantic.. hee..

after movie WALK to suntec with ys.. hahaha.. y i capitalize WALK? cos lazy ys.. actually dun wanna walk de.. cos he got car ma.. hahaha.. but anyway.. he still walk with me.. then walk back to esplanade de makansutra for dinner.. i ate prawn mee.. ys ordered salad you tiao n pineapple rice.. hahaha.. he so suay... the pineapple rice taste something wrong sia.. hahaha.. i hav the last bite when he said that.. so.. god bless him anyway.. hahaha.. but the you tiao is nice!! gd gd... hahaha.. then he peel prawns... ask me eat.. i dun wan.. scary... he poke his fork onto the prawns.. HARD.. then he show his angry face.. saying "i nvr peel prawn for anyone.. u nvr eat.. nvr giv me face!! dun eat dun eat lor i eat myself!!" then i chuah dio of cos.. so i use my chopstick giap the prawn n into my mouth.. hahaha.. scary him.. at last.. he laugh.. BLEAH!!

after dinner.. went the roof terrace of esplanade.. took a few pics with his phone.. hahah.. then he drove me home.. n ya.. im tired till i slp in his car again.. poor him.. gotta book in at sat night.. haha.. then i slept at 3 am that very night.. cos reformating my com again.. once again.. haiz.. wat a lousy com i hav..!! argh~

then woke up.. chat in msn a bit b4 going bugis with my bro.. haha.. bot his stuff.. went back home lor.. i dunno wat i did actually after that.. i onli noe im crapping with my family today!!

haha.. btw.. my indo uncle is here today.. he's doing painting for the house during these 2 weeks in singapore!! cool!! should my rm be purple?!! hiak hiak!! =P

oops!! i haven been studying for my LM n PCCC papers... hahaha.. but i oso not afraid.. juz carry on.. hahaha.. =x ok.. time for TV.. "date with vampire 3" buai~ will post the pics my bro took with his new phone another day.. busy now.. hahaha.. =x

GRRRRRR~~~ Life is Boring~!!

2005-09-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

here i m again... feeling darn bored... thatz life isnt it?!! alwayz tot life is filled with ups n downs.. but haiz!! lol. now im feeling so plain... hahaha should change my name to Jane.. then will be Plain Jane le.. eh.. i think itz not funny ba.. hahah.. but im laughing.. ok.. lame! lol.

juz now while rotting.. im thinking... wat r the things i wanna do if i hav a chance?!! hahaha.. hav u ever think of that?!! lol. im with all sorts of stupid imaginations la.. hahaha.. well~ for me..
i will like to...

ride on a horse (on a green green grassland.. peacefulness~ WOO~)
ride on a camel (hopefully in the desert.. got that ambience ma.. hee)
tour around the world (i mean every single part of the world)
play a music piece on the delicated piano- "canon in D" (my fav... but i dunno how to read the "dao gay" wor.. =x)
do all sorts of sports (i really do mean ALL~ lol. muz include ice-skiing too! HALU~ MAYBE..)

thatz wat i can think of currently.. hahaha... i think a bit impossible la.. hmm... itz alright to think ba.. hahaha.. =x ya.. im living in fantasy again~ BLEAH!

juz now in the afternoon chat with mr cartoon n ys, the 2 ns men, hahaha... not forgetting zx la... can u believe that im actually so bored?!! oh man~ then my 3 fated gals not online.. im feeling rather lost juz now la.. got a lot to tell them.. then now.. nth much liao.. hahahah.. cos i forgot everything once again.. =x

then watch TV after my dinner... watch Guess 3.. omg.. those musculine guys.. aiyoeh.. make me wonder.. Y?!! y guys wan their body to look so "rocky"? =x hmmm.. seriously leh.. dun understand.. hahaha.. if average average still nvr.. but... eek!! i think those muscles is too big that they need the support of a bra lor.. *shake head* really dun understand... lol. SW should watch sia.. hahaha... =P

after that cont my chat with ys again.. he send me a song very nice wor.. itz "hong ri" by Hacken Lee.. then 2 of us learn to sing that song.. ok la.. difficult... cos i alwayz get tongue-tight.. BUT.. i still make it after ys haolian to me he noe the whole song le.. lol. =P

now chatting with my shi fu lor! (identity shall not be revealed) ok la.. thatz all for today.. hahaha.. =P dun miss me..

Number 150 posts!

2005-09-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

juz happen to see the number of posts posted in my blog.. hahah.. ok la.. bo liao...

howz my ICP paper?!! hahaha.. well.. no comments.. =P juz hope can pass lor.. im someone with no high expectation in my results.. so itz ok.. hmm.. is that something gd ar?!.. without high expectation in life.. simple?!! no idea.. thatz juz me.. cant be changed.. hahaha...

woke up 3 am in the morning to study for my ICP paper.. zx giv me wake up call de.. followed by i wake up call zj... then... haha.. zj called.. juz 1 ring... grr.. my mum woke up le.. she come into my rm.. her expression was quite stunned looking.. as if she's thinking, "OMG~ my daughter actually wake up to study?!!" well.. how can i react to that? i can onli giv this.. o.O" hahaha.. =x

after the paper n lam's xtra lesson... guess where i went?!! hahaha...
TO MY DARLING HM's hostel at nus.. hahaha

hmm.. the char kway teow there not really nice.. so~~ dun buy.. but u can try if u wan... hahaha.. how i spend my time there?!! ok.. actually im half-wet upon arrival.. cos itz raining so heavily.. then after lunch.. 2 of us juz slack around.. played the personality tests.. (sry, lazy to post the results onto my blog) then i played games by myself... Chuzzles
n that hm hor.. fell aslp.. hahaha... we din really study la.. mostly chit-chatting lor.. then xy called.. hahaha... 3 of us tok on the phone.. quite idiot la.. but fun... hahahah... then we saw squirrels on the trees juz outside the rm's window.. tried taking pics of the squirrels but sort of too far away le.. so we juz takes peeps at the squirrels lor.. 0530 i took a bus home le...

wat m i going to do ne?!! well~ not sure too..
anyway.. (words mainly to xueer)
can i be happy?!!
M A Y B E

perhaps im too tired to be feeling anything..

2005-09-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

damn! i feel like crying again... m i that typical Leo?!! the dark sky is crying now.. but there's currently no tear for me to shed.. my eyes r dehydrating.. im tired.. juz too tired.. wake up 3am in the morning juz to study for microE paper..

sometimes i really feel such a failure.. in everything.. life, sch...

im alwayz trying to console myself... itz nth...y not juz stay like wad i hav been doing for that past 2 weeks.. living my carefree life... with no worries... no jealousy.. no hatred.. no frustration..
but can i do that?!! will that wonderful feeling last?!! thatz another matter...

i dun think i would like to hide anything le...

im kind of fed up with having a stranger-liked clzmate in clz... someone who had mentioned wait till i hav put away with the past.. i've done that.. hav u?!! or izzt u r juz letting it all go~?!! even that frenship?! im actually more of feeling disappointed rather than depressed..perhaps.. im too silly to hav put so much hope b4.. perhaps itz time to giv up... forgetting everything completely..

Thatz waD fReNs R 4

2005-09-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

found these "quotes" quite meaningful (though itz long!).. lol.

... I remember you and recall you without effort, without exercise of will; that is, by natural impulse, indicated by a sense of duty, or of obligation. And that, I take it, is the only sort of remembering worth the having. When we think of friends, and call their faces out of the shadows, and their voices out of the echoes that faint along the corridors of memory, and do it without knowing why save that we love to do it, we content ourselves that friendship is a Reality, and not a Fancy -- that it is built upon a rock, and not upon the sands that dissolve away with the ebbing tides and carry their monuments with them.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate now knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

nice hor?!! uh oh~ here i m slacking again.. hahaha.. =x im bored!! haiz~ no one to entertain me de.. sian si le.. but at least.. today for lunch.. my bro cooked for me.. wahahahha.. how sweet~!! hehehe... =P haiz.. ok la.. think i better go back to my studies le.. hope later an entertainer will come my way~ hahahah... itz sunday today!! lol. anyway!

Happy B'dae Yee Fenn & Denise~!

Another PLAY day~

2005-09-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.

You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

hee.. juz back no long ago~ was out with hm, yp n xy... hm n yp go cut n highlight their hair liao lor!!! wahahah... they look.......... FABULOUS with their new hairstyle!! hoho.. no more cheena le~ haha.. they muz be damn happy abt that.. then me n xy become so dull suddenly... bcos the both of them shine! LOL. anyway.. they spent $130 each for their new hair look.. treatment included la.. so not too bad.. haha..

while they doing their hair.. xy n i go TM walk walk lor.. actually.. wat we 2 r doing is juz toking.. i can say we r not even window shopping.. both of us seem to be more focused in our conversation.. haha.. after that go Mac eat ice-cream n fries.. then meet the 2 stylo gals!! hahaha..

guess wat! around 3 plus.. 4 of us.. went bugis to take neoprints!! HM took neoprints with us?!! hahaha.. buy 4D!!! hahaha.. like once in a lifetime thingy lor.. hahha.. ok~ lame~ the process is fun la!.. hahaha... then walk to suntec.. haha.. walk walk... bot 3 odd ear-studs.. hahah... share with yp.. she bot 3 odd ones too.. which make it 3 pairs.. for $10... hahaha.. weird us ar?!! but nvm la.. happy happy jiu hao.. =x then went marina square... went to that accessories shop (stupid me.. nvr see the name of that shop) as usual... i saw something that i like again~ but din buy.. zz... (guess xy will noe which one im toking abt ba.. haiz)

for dinner.. we went ESPLANADE.. the makansutra there.. hee.. wat we ordered ar?!! hmmm~ fried oyster omelette-$4+, fried prawn mee-$6 and carrot cake-$3.50.. hahaha.. we shared everything! jealous of us anot?!! our frenship WOOT! hee.. =P

after dinner.. slack around esplanade that area by the river... b4 that.. we buy can drinks.. funny.. that hm la.. dunno is say she cute or wat sia.. but the glass bottle coke for that empty bottle.. hahaha.. then i bot root beer.. idiot me! tot the drink will splash out if i open it.. gasy ma.. =x then i make so much noise over there.. tried opening.. then hmm.. i break the opener a bit... hehe.. then the drink stall uncle laugh n open for me.. wahahaha.. =P i noe im stupid.. but nvm.. bleah! then spend the rest of our time chatting over there.. abt life.. abt future.. LOL. enjoyed the peace for that moment.. =)

on the way home.. we crap a lot la.. then we started to shed tears of joy.. hahaha.. enjoyable day.. hehe..

Future Career-minded me?!!

2005-09-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

hmm~ watz others' perception of the current me?!! i dunno y m i not quite happy these few days oso.. should be studying.. but something seems to be bothering me.. which i hav no idea abt..

well~ i heard something from my bro.. he said mum told him.. in future.. ME.. i will be career-minded.. my priority will be career over love.. hmm.. wat can i say?!! i dun hav the ability to predict my future.. coming to that.. it has been so long since i last dream.. hmm.. perhaps no great happenings to me yet ba..

ys juz now say im a "xiao nu ren" to bf.. hahah.. Maybe~ but i think i still have my own thinking ba.. my stubborn character.. who can change me?!! rite?!! lol. think most ppl will agree.. haha..

anyway.. i added songs to my frenster profile liao.. check it out!! visit more often n loook out for more changes! hee..

how m i feeling now?!! hahah.. my reply to this qn is.. im still as confused.. im bored n at the same time.. feeling worried.. dunno y.. no reason to that i guess.. =P

Mass OutBreak of Pimples!!

2005-09-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

yaya.. ALL THX TO VAL~

hohoho~!! i luv HALU!! he's so so so COOL!! luv his character in PRIDE!! omg~!! he's juz so cool!! hahaha.. maybe u r thinking im sot.. but i think im indeed sot!! wahahah.. his agility on ice for today's episode is juz so amazing.. hahah.. i luv his character!! juz luv it.. hee..

actually i din realze im smiling while watching the show till my bro say, "jie, r u sot or something?! watch TV can oso keep smiling.. sot le ar?!!" hahaha.. MAYBE~ =P

anyway.. now if i see anything related to scorpio.. i will think of Halu.. wondering y?! hahah.. Halu is the captain of the ice hockey team "Blue Scorpions" hehe..

hmm.. ok.. time to slp le la.. zj finish his report le.. then i print for him liao.. wahahah.. he owe me drinks.. thatz wat he promised anyway.. =P tml going sch self-study le.. hope i can revise more tml compared to today.. hahah.. =x

-looking forward to fri-

REPORTS DOWN!! WOOHOO!!

2005-09-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

YIPPEE!! done with ALL my reports!! wahahaha.. chiong the whole ICP report today.. erm.. actually planned to chiong today after the last test of this sem, LM, de liao.. guess wat?!! hahaha.. Dr cheng called me while im having the test.. scare me.. i tot who called.. he ask me to inforn mr yq too.. hahahah.. think yq rushing his report now le.. jia you wor! rmb to send me n i help u hand in tml.. hahah..

cant belive that im rather sot today.. well~ no more test le!! i can now settle down peacefully to study for my exams.. hoho!! but.. hee... noe wat i did today after PCCC xtra lesson?!! hehe.. went FC4 for lunch.. then took pics with xueer n dor.. make rather silly expression, making 3 of us laughing like mad.. haha.. itz kind ofa way of distressing ok~ hahaha.. =P

then read val's CLEO magazine.. oh man~!! save $$ big plan!! hahaha.. actually should be $11 big plan.. hahaha.. things selling at 11 bucks each wor.. hoho.. then.. i fell deeply inluv with that black beads necklace.. hehe.. i wanna get that liao! then i think that Police that top quite nice oso.. but kind of ex to me.. after exam will go shopping see see worth the price anot lor.. hee..

then i bot teenage mag on the way back to join pk, daryl, da jie and eric.. actual plan was to study... in the end.. i end up hmm.. forget how i wasted my time liao.. hahaha.. =x

anyway~ ppl!! i need entertainment during exam period la.. i dun wanna die of boredom n stress sia.. fill my life with some fun!! come on!! enjoy life! dun stress! hee.. lalala

waD is HoPe?!

2005-09-11T21:25:00.000+08:00

here's wad i hav for zj.. hee.. my complete ans to ur qn! =P

When the heart is enlivened again, it feels like the sun coming out after a week of rainy days. There is hope in the heart that chases the clouds away. Hope is a higher heart frequency and as you begin to reconnect with your heart, hope is waiting to show you new possibilities and arrest the downward spiral of grief and loneliness. It becomes a matter of how soon you want the sun to shine. Listening to the still, small voice in your heart will make hope into a reality.

aRgh!!

2005-09-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

sian si le!! i hav nvr feel so tired n sick b4 sia.. feel so weak now.. but im not having fever.. im juz suffering from stupid sore throat and terrible cough sia! once cough.. i cant stop easily lor.. argh!! ya.. i lost my voice too.. cant yell cant shout.. cant scold.. the thing is i cant laugh too much oso bcos of my gastric.. >.< stupid day today~ =(

Palmolive?!! itz over! hoho!

2005-09-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

finally no more presentation for this sem le! left with 2 reports that is MicroE and ICP n semestral exam liao.. hahaha.. then juz finish 2 tests this week.. feel so shuang.. hahah... next n the last test for this sem coming up is LM.. gotta strive for it le.. hahaha.. but i still wanna work on fri n sat.. hee.. =P

btw.. today went to watch "Longest Yard" with "halu" (cartoon) hahaha.. he got more n more nick le lor.. oh.. the show is damn nice wor!!! hahaha... strongly recommended movie.. then go around PS walk walk.. spend most of the time in Carrefour.. hahaha.. SW bot "snake" talc and energizer torchlight for his NS.. SOON le wor~ juz hope that he will be fine in there ba..

coincidently.. saw Ziv Teo Wei Zhong outside Carrefour.. alone.. hahaha.. he waiting for 7pm to go join dunno wat competition.. hahaha.. anyway.. wish him the best of luck! =)

juz now while waiting for SW to arrive.. i went samsung shop see HP.. came across these 2.. hope u ppl will giv me comments on the phones.. lol. here goes:

SGH-E530C
Express your Individuality

Express your unique flair and individuality with the vibrant Samsung E530C. With a kaleidoscope of colors to choose from, there's a phone to match every personality. It says everything about who you really are. After all, why follow the crowd when you can be the trendsetter? Choose from a palette of colours to match your personality : Lavender, Oasis Blue, Valentine Pink, Chic White or Festival Orange? Take a pick!

Strike a pose

Capture all your special momets with the E530C's megapixel camera. It's integrated flash and 4x digital zoom lets you snap high-quality 1152 x 864 resolution pictures.
Megapixel resolution
4x digital zoom & contrast adjustment
Multi-shot function
Photo frames & photo effect

Lights, camera, action!

Make your own movies with up to 1 hour of video recording in MPEG4. Turn on the LED light and shoot video even in the dark. Then host your own film festival and share tour movies with friends in the brightest clarity on the crystal clear 262,144 colour TFT LCD screen.
MPEG4 / H.263
Up to 1 hr video recording
Video at CIF resolution (352 X 288)

Groove to the music

Listen to your favourite tunes with the E530C's Music Player. With built-in 92MB memory, you can store more songs and wherever you go, more music will always accompany you.
MP3. AAC, AAC+

Key features

Up to 1 hr of voice recording
Built-in 92 MB memory
Personal Organiser
Java Games
Connectivity via Bluetooth for Voice & Data, USB, MMS, SyncML,Email Client
GPRS Class 10, WAP 2.0
Up to 1,000 phonebook entries

another phone is...

SGH-E730
Let's Groove

Compact and slim at 88g, this stylish music phone is ideal companion on the go with an integrated MP3/ AAC player and FM Radio for endless hours of musical enjoyment. Start everyday on the right note with the SGH-E730
Music Within Easy Reach

Connect to your music with greater ease. The Ultra-portable SGH-E730 brings your favourite MP3, AAC and radio tunes within easy reach. The first of its kind to feature external music control keys, this music maestro enables instant playback, song selection and volume adjustment - all at the touch of a button. Carry up to 20 of your favourite MP3 songs with the built-in 90 MB memory. With the SGH-E730, you can truly groove!

It Doesn't Get Simpler Than This

Harnessing mobile technology is now a breeze. With SGH-E730's Bluetooth™ wireless connectivity, you can transfer data to your PC with greater ease and flexibility. You can even send images to your photo printer for higher quality printouts in a jiffy. Seeing is believing!

SyncML
USB
vCard & vCalendar
Email Client

What a Picture!

Creativity knows no limits with the SGH-E730. The phone's built-in 1.3 megapixel, LED flash camera lets you capture your snapshots with amazing clarity. With an impressive 90 MB end-user memory, you can store up to hundreds of pictures at the highest resolution (1280 X 1024 pixels). Go on, shoot your heart's content!

4X Digital Zoom & Contrast Adjustment
Multi-Shot Function

Video Recording (MPEG4)
Bulit-in 90 MB Memory
262k-Colour TFT-LCD Screen
64 Polyphonics /MP3 /Voice Recording Ringtones
Java™ Games
Speakerphone
Personal Organiser
Up to 1,000 Phonebook Entries with 5,000 numbers

or do u think Nokia 6230i is better?! lol. i need comments!

Do AnGeLs exiSt?!

2005-09-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today whole day headache.. n im getting bored le.. dun feel like doing anything at all.. study cgmp.. not really study lor.. im juz highlighting blindly.. haiz..

im getting more stressed up these few days.. im really tired le.. SPARE ME!! =(

who can i find when i feel lost?! who can lend his/her shoulder when i feel like crying? who can be my companion when im lonely?!! who can i tok to when i need a listening ear? who can make me happy when im down?!! who can enlighten me when im in a dark world? who can guide me thru the whole journey of my life?!! who can fulfil my dreams when i wish upon the stars?! who can make miracles come true when i believe?
ANGELS?!!
GUARDIAN ANGELS?!!
do angels really exist?!
who noes.. haiz..

maybe everything has to depend on oneself.. i ought to depend on my own..
provide me with the strength, courage, faith, confidence, energy, n most imptly the love~

perhaps thatz my way of life..

itZ RaiNinG~ wHo im OuT wiTh?

2005-09-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

hahaha... notice a trend wor.. everytime out with YS.. sure rain de!!! dunno why oso.. hahaha... same thing.. he drove lor.. then in his car i played with his new HP n digicam.. HEHE~ =P

today went watch "drink drank drunk" at PS.. actually meet 1pm at my block de... hahaha.. but hor~ he called at that time n say he juz wake up.. pro rite?!! hahaha.. then met him n realize he slept at 6am this morning.. *shake head* another owl i noe of.. [the other that hoots is SW lor.. both r alike in some ways.. hahaha]

the show very nice.. got funny part.. got touching part.. wah.. actually i got cry la.. but guess YS din notice.. hahaha.. hoho.. watched this le.. now left with these upcoming movies which i haven watch..

Movies awaiting:
* HerBie
* Perfect Catch

after that show.. we r out of the cinema.. guess who we saw?!! HOHO..
Actors from Mediacorps wor! they r Jack Neo n Hui Ge sitting in a dunno wat room near the "Star Factory"-arcade. then we look look.. saw Mark Lee in front of me!! hahaha.. i dunno y im so happy la... itz like.. Mark Lee smiled at me.. hahah.. he looked at me n smiled!! LOL =x i noe i sound sickening.. but im juz quite surprised abt that..

after that.. went spotlight look for HT's prezzie.. cant mention here.. hahaha..
-secret-
sssSSSHHHhhhhhhh~
but din get anything in the end.. hahaha.. for some reasons... hehe..
then YS bot 2 caps from 77th street for his fren, Kah Leong de bdae.. i noe him too de.. he's once my neighbour plus pri schmate.. but we seldom tok ba.. haha..

after that we nth do.. so got arcade play lor.. YS jio me play Ghost Squad with him.. actually i dun really rmb that game's name la.. hahhaah.. =x that stupid gun!! so heavy!! >.< then watch other ppl play those "di gum" game.. can get HP or mp3 de wor~ haiz.. i tried a few times.. failed!! sian si le!! stupid machine cheat ppl's feeling de!! >.< cant it let me have the phone?!!! >.< ROAR~

giving up on the game le.. we go walk walk.. then YS go buy Tako Yaki.. i buy crispy chicken.. haha.. on the way home.. enjoy eating.. n singing!! in his car HAHAHA.. =P

ok~ thatz all folks~!! Check me out again soon! ;)

im in sch~

2005-09-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

sianz... im in SP now..
actual Venue: main library, lvl 4A, com station is R9-18.

hahah..sot le.. dun feel like going home so early.. then here trying to do my report.. the com is so laggy.. argh~ actually going out de leh.. but mum ask me go home eat dinner.. listen to her fierce voice.. dun dare to say more le.. in the end.. no shopping.. NTH! lol.

yest saw cartoon again.. he's in his new style wor.. hahaha.. look quite punkish la.. then got to noe a fren of his.. ken.. if im not wrong.. hahaha.. coincidently.. his sec sch is changkat changi wor.. then he noe chin fai too.. lol. so qiao rite?!! on the way home on the mrt with cartoon.. the "portable player" played again.. hee.. nice nice.. he's really a talented cartoon.. hahaha..

superstar~
wei lian win wor.. actually not really surprising la.. got no comment over that.. then YS ask me if i wanna join him go the superstar concert anot.. i feel like to.. but no money.. needa save money for my new hp.. haha.. too bad la.. hoho..

at night.. cartoon reach home.. test out his new logitech webcam which he bot at $44 at the comex exhibition.. hahaha.. niao niao de.. he's so dark.. till i onli see his white clean set of teeth.. n the light reflection from his specs.. hahaha... then he machiam DJ like that.. play songs thru his com.. haha.. n funny thing is he hold his hp n wave... all this.. i can see thru his webcam.. cartoon him la..

after that i tot he got mic.. so i plug in mine.. i tok to him.. he replied by typing out.. hahaha.. itz like.. he can hear me but can see me.. i can see him but cant hear him.. hahaha.. cartoon~ LOL.

ok la.. i go do my work liao.. boring~ entertain me if u.. yes U!! if u r free~ hahaha... =P

wat m i doing now?!!!

2005-09-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

hahaha... why m i here?!! grr.. im feeling bored, dead.. everything!! ARGH~!! Dr lim got that scary meh?!! y ppl all chiong for his paper?!! im here slacking away again... hahah...

juz now after sch.. went holland V with zj, zx and yh... go there eat BK.. hahah... muz be thinking that we muz be sot le rite?!! hahah.. rot at BK for a while.. then yh wanna go to the ladies.. funny.. she waited very long wor.. but nobody come out from that toilet.. she scared so ask me go with her.. i go there.. wait.. SILENCE! a bit scary.. eek~ then we ran out of the toilet.. bo bian.. we walk to the little shopping mall over the other side de toilet..

hehe.. both of us nia.. sun bian go shop shop.. look look lor.. hoho.. spend quite a long time in 2 accessories shop.. the necklaces r so nice!! there's 1 bracelet.. hee.. we find it quite nice.. yh go try on it.. but her hand too small.. a bit weird.. she keep saying "uh-oh" in the shop.. hahah.. but then wadeva we saw.. we oso got no money with us.. hahaha.. nvm la.. see see oso shuang..

then go back BK.. the 3 of them toking.. i fell aslp~ haha.. ok la.. im a pig.. hahaha.. on the way back home i slp oso.. hahah.. wake up.. i stunned.. got 1 head beside me.. is so close to my face.. scare me.. lol. the uncle beside me fell aslp la.. *yawnz* tired u noe~

i dunno wat crap im toking~ juz feel stressed up rite now!! tml ICP test le la!! then PCCC presentation!! may god bless me ah! *pray hard*

:::POOF:::

"CaRtooNic" Day

2005-08-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

spend a day out with a cartoon.. think he travel from the Looney Toons to this world.. hahah.. think this cartoon is late for national day celebration bah... dressed in red n white.. stunning sia.. lol.

ok la.. firstly meet him liao.. he ate Big Mac at fc 2 in sp.. haha.. then take train to lavender, walked to beach rd.. weather is like.. omg~ HOT! he went around looking for his shades n other stuff la.. but without buying anything.. off we go to bugis village..

hoho.. spend a long time there.. the cartoon SW (SW = shao wei).. haha.. bot a gigantic silver-framed sunglass and a pocket watch.. haha.. a weird person who likes weird stuff that much.. but unique in his own way n style la.. maybe he's some cartoons from the 60s... hahaha... =P

btw.. i saw chiang hui!! hahaha.. she changed a lot once again~ omg!! cant believe it.. ever-changing fren she is.. lol. ok.. back to topic~ hee..=x

went bugis J, SW bot a FOXmen green singlet.. ya.. not his number 13.. itz 27.. hahaha.. then wanted to go to EDGE.. he tell me another joke again.. hahaha..
"wanna go EDGE?!!"
-SW walked towards the nearest corner-
he said, "we reach le"
funny ma?!! oh man~ im laughing like mad again...
then toking abt sun-tanning in sentosa.. wonder how a Chinese foreigner will say if he wanna go sun-tanning?
"wo yao qu shen tao sa san tian" (i wanna go sentosa 3 days)
[san tian = sun-tann]

thatz the cartoon lamer~ hahaha..

after that walk to suntec.. walk walk.. then buy sour candies from mini toons eat.. cartoon jiu shi cartoon.. actually im quite surprised to see a big guy who luv candies.. hahaha.. but see the cute side of him.. funny.. lol.

off we go to marina square.. that dinner at long john's was incredibly crazy~ fortunately.. i managed to finish my food.. all his jokes.. omg~ wanna stop laughing oso cannot.. wanna start eating oso cmi.. bth~

after dinner.. went to the dunno wat shop... the accessories there r quite nice leh... actually wanna buy a present for WZ de.. but dun hav the colour me n HT wan.. in the end.. i bot 3 handbands... 1 for myself.. 1 for my bro n 1 for cartoon...

went giant shop shop abit b4 walking to city hall station.. this is the period whereby transformation occur.. hahaha... cartoon become Lee Sheng Jie to Ah Du.. hahaha.. his voice.. power.. can imitate a lot of singers sia.. quite nice.. ok la.. xie xie.. enjoyed the end of the day with fake "Ah Du"

now im wondering who's the true SW?!! *scratch head*

i did it again~

2005-08-28T17:27:00.000+08:00

i did it once again... itz not something gd nor bad.. juz neutral.. history repeats itself after so many years.. since P6.. feeling guilty early in the morning isnt something gd afterall..

muz be wondering wat i hav done ba?!! lol. i accidentally delete all the photos inside my aunt's digi cam.. i called her hp n apologised.. actually waiting for her to scold me de.. but she nvr... im sort of feeling more guilty that way... then i burst into tears after that.. in turn.. she consoled me.. repeating itz ok~

mistakes mistakes mistakes.. is it wat i hav done all my life?!! hav a long tok with my dad.. some "decades" de hidden truth suddenly juz become part of me.. although itz something sad or bad.. i could say.. my impression of my ah gong is still as gd.. he's still a gd ah gong to me.. nvr will i forget him.. so.. thatz how my dad grow up independently... suddenly realize how gd is my dad as a role of a father.. =) hav the urge of telling him.. "i love u".. haha.. but still.. sry dad..

well~ here i m.. home alone.. HA HA.. parents n aunt went shopping.. bro went out with his frenz.. me.. right here.. right now.. blogging?!!! omg~ hahah.. sad ar?! =P hope tml got activities going on after sch.. lessons end at 10~ sian rite?!! zz..

ok.. think im better off to buy dinner for myself le.. tata.. hahah (reply="mayo")

BUSY plus BORED

2005-08-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

juz went jogging today after lesson at 1... ran 6 n half rounds.. lousier than that time ran with zj on mon.. which is 7 rounds.. but i too 15 min plus plus to complete.. haiz.. sadded.. then after jogging.. walk to swimming pool de toilet take shower wor.. stupid eric lead me to the "restricted" area of the pool.. then we kenna beeped by the lifeguard.. then gui yi who was sitting under the umbrella beside the pool with her frenz called for us.. we tot wat.. walked towards them.. she juz said "hello" hahaha..

after shower liao.. come out.. i realize my right leg de second toe nail is black in colour sia.. painful oso.. haiz.. then pk ask me go home apply ZamBuk.. hahaha... n put plaster.. zz.. then ok.. planned to study till 5.. but in the end.. me n val were playing with eric's n pk's hp.. hahahaha... taking pics of cos..

after that go city hall meet xueer n dor go home together.. hahaha.. all the "ku ku" were there.. xueer n dor cut their fringe.. abit funny la.. but they still attractive.. not to worry.. hahaha.. then cos im wearing specs ma.. so nerdy.. zz.. xueer still wanna take pic with me.. -.-"

reach home.. almost fall aslp on the sofa sia.. feel so tired suddenly.. haiz.. then i go itchy hand cut my black toe nail.. thinking that it will be less painful.. i juz cut nia.. blood spurts out.. black nail become original colour liao.. but more painful.. seems like.. i've got a blister on my toe nail~ hahaha

hmm.. im bored now.. but i noe i've got reports waiting for me to finish.. but im still bored.. onli ys is entertaining now.. he's going tanning leh!!! i cant go!! >.< i wanna go east coast!!! haiz...

tml i will be the tour guide of my cousin n aunt from indo wor.. bringing them to esplanade... then around nite.. go sentosa de musical fountain.. haiz~ why?!! juz the musical fountain?!! actually can bring them to the beach oso hor?!! itz free anyway.. so long nvr go liao.. actually.. i got no idea how to travel there.. LOL. =x

2005-08-24T19:52:00.000+08:00

hmm.. seems to be a peaceful few days.. except... my stomach almost killed me yest.. >.< pain lor.. then no energy.. till val call "eric the ambulance" come save me.. then my bro called me telling me the power button for my com got stuck inside the CPU.. im so fed up lor.. scolded him over the phone.. haiz..

come back home reformat com... did nth yest.. so sad lor...

haiz.. i dunno y.. im feeling awkward these few days.. dunno how to describe my feeling.. kind of out of the world de gan jue.. hahaha.. think i better concentrate on my present ba.. but i oso cannot dun think so much... ARGH!! y izzt so ma fan ar?!!!!
>.<

WeLcoMe to The woRLd oF NinEteEn

2005-08-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

AHEM~~~ here's the 19 gal blogging~ hehe..

happy bdae to me
happy bdae to me
happy bdae to rebec
happy bdae to me!!

HAPPY 19th BDAE TO REBECCA!

hmm... 19aug at 0000... zj was the first to wish me!! lol. congrats to zj... he won the "fastest fingers" award! hahaa.. sry.. no prize.. then sad lor.. my msn was a silence so suddenly.. i tot everyone forget abt it le.. lol. then i realize.. Project Superstar snatch away the spotlight of the bdae gal... haiz... nvm~

at least.. after a few min.. everyone start wishing me le.. im touched... even touched when vincent (who noe my bdae at that last min) called me n sang a happy bdae song to me... well~ he won the most touching wisher award of the year.. wahahahah.. as usual.. i cried at that very moment la.. lol. then at that same time.. xueer wish me.. her display pic.. omg!! lol really thx a lot xueer.. luv u so much!! she won the sweetest bdae gift of the year.. hahahaha..

well~~ thx the rest who wishes me!! thx a lot!! i will definitely rmb u ppl!! =)

then on that very day.. met kel, xueer, val out to city hall... hahaha.. coincidently saw vincent who was working there.. we went swensen's la.. then i cant finish any of the food lor.. sadded.. lol. =x then went esplanade.. took some pics.. hehee.. after that meet hm at suntec.. she bot her shoes.. lol. then took train to ps to meet kiap, pk, eric.. meet shin yee n yp there oso.. walk back to city link..

we went thai express for dinner.. lol. the waiters there very nice wor~~ hee.. then something interesting happen wor~ i turned 19 on the 19th.. im seated on the no.19 table for dinner at 1919(time) this is true wor~ cant believe it rite?! during dinner.. we get to no alot of happenings that hav happened to each one of us all this while.. fun!

yest.. quite sad la.. im feeling sick.. stay at home for the whole day... haiz.. weak gal i m.. then kind of emotional.. i noe.. well~ im feeling lost thatz y.. hmm.. for no reasons.. i dunno.. but ppl.. dun worry abt me.. im ok~

today.. actually wanna go east coast with ys de.. but unfortunately.. itz raining.. =( no east coast for me!! sad.. however, we went to catch a movie instead.. "Must Love Dogs" hey~!! that movie is simple n sweet wor~~ very nice!! well.. REALLY a gd show!! lol.

well well~ here's wat i get for my bdae prezzie:
black sling bag
CRYSTAL APPLE
green skirt(too short though)
the above are from 23 ppl from SP.. hehe.. thx! NEXT!
body shop shower foam, perfume, body lotion
from my BESTIES! hm, yp & xy(shin yee) NEXT!
NIKE bag (something i nvr expect)
from ys alone.. lol. he wasted his money buy that bag... crazy~
THX TO ALL!!

tml after sch at 10am (after lunch) going jogging, badminton with zj.. dunno going bball anot.. but that zj.. hmph!! wan me to help him carry his fyp stuff home first.. m i his maid?!! ROAR!! well~ hope things will go as planned.. but i wonder wat stuff he wan me to carry.. bully me nia! lol. JK. =P

the DAY

2005-08-18T20:28:00.000+08:00

*knock my head*
wake up rebec!! y think y think?!! hmm.. waste time thinking again.. i realized i hav lost alot after so much things had happened.. there's nth for me to share... juz sorrows.. but y on earth will a person share sorrows?!! so juz keep my mouth a shut...

coming near coming near... how m i feeling..? up or down?! high or low?!! im feeling everything... complexity of life that is..

today watched "The Maid" with vincent.. scary movie.. i screamed as usual.. YS!! i have proven this to u wor!! lol.

hmmm.. tired.. i no mood to carry on le... will update again when the mood is back..

itz in Advance

2005-08-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Bdae Singapore~

mon after lesson.. went v8 hav our lunch.. those who went r:
xueer
val
dor
val is such a failure.. =x she broke 3 straws.. lousy.. lol. but make that lunch more joyful in some sense.. then met eric.. took neoprints with him.. but then.. hmm... spend money again.. hahaha.. maybe itz time to stop le ba... after shop for a while.. met pk.. dor n xueer went home.. we 4 cont shop..

n itz NATIONAL DAY! met val n eric at fareast in the afternoon.. saw xueting there oso.. then go city link there walk walk.. go suntec play a bit of arcade.. then meet ys there.. his hair has grown le.. no botak liao.. lol. he din drive.. miracle lor.. haha.. =P but gd that he nvr drive.. if not sure traffic jam de.. then i bring him walk back to marina square.. on the way.. he's nagging.. roar! lol. he say i alwayz bring him walk a long way de.. then it ended up he bring me there.. by jay-walking.. n ya.. itz like we own the road like that.. hahaha... bot ticket for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. then we left with nth to do while waiting for time to pass..

so shop around marina.. then go esplanade.. buy strawberry chocolate dip.. the shopkeeper very cheeky... say if not enuff.. buy 1 more pack.. then i said NO! lol. the roof terrace is not opened so we joined the crowd outside.. i dunno wat they r waiting for or looking at.. then ys pt to me where the fireworks may be coming from.. grr.. some ppl saw fireworks for 2 times le lor.. i not even once.. haiz.. then we go walk walk the road in between marina n esplanade.. the traffic police block the road like shit lor.. make us make a big U-turn.. n that ys wanna pang seh me.. jump over the blockage.. then i threaten him say i will call for the police.. then he say he not scared.. kns.. he say police got gun.. he got rifle.. -.-" (rifle in his camp of cos~) n i din noe.. im actually out with this terrorist.. hahaha..

then walk back to marina.. he teach me billard.. i listen to his lecture.. but i catch no ball.. hahaha.. then he keep explaining.. i aga aga noe liao.. then play play play.. well.. im lousy.. hahaha.. then got 1 ball.. itz at the corner of the center hole de.. ok la.. quite difficult to get in with my position of the white ball.. he bet i wun go in.. i say i will prove to him i can..
SILENCE!
i aim!
SHOOT!
n itz IN!!!
he's speechless.. n im laughing like mad.. after that.. go watch the movie le! itz funny.. n so musical.. haha.. n ys say i cant see fireworks this year.. but i can still watch it in the movie itself.. im like.. -.-""" omg~ ARGH! after that show... wahahaha.. dinner at swensens

long queue lor.. then he say.. "hui gu niang need to go home le wor.." well.. itz 9.. n i need to be home by 10.. so i called my mum to inform her.. haha.. got nag from her la.. cos the next day still got lessons ma.. then after we r seated.. the table beside us.. got a little boy.. the boy boy is looking at the mirror behind him.. then ys who was facing the mirror.. dunno wat he doing oso.. he say he's playing with that boy boy.. haha.. then i turned to the boy boy beside me.. he looked at me..
i smiled at him..
he looked away..
not looking back anymore..
then the boy dunno tell wat to his ah gong or something.. he pt his finger at me.. oh man! sadded.. ys laugh of cos la! say i bully him.. =/ im juz trying to be frenly rite?!! lol but itz not that bad afterall.. b4 the little boy left.. he smiled at me!!! HAPPILY!! n WAVED to me.. im like so delighted! haha.. he dun hate me.. hehe.. but poor ys.. the boy nvr even look at him.. hahahaha..

well.. for dinner.. itz a free advance bdae treat from ys.. when billing.. we r actually pushing money to each other.. then attract attn lor.. the waitress come n ask if do we need help.. haha we shake our heads.. then took a train home sweet home.. n that guy jay-walk again.. lol. i reached home at 11pm sharp! =P no scolding.. hehe..

anyway, ys.. thx for ur advance bdae treat! actually thx for everything bah.. ur listening ears.. n u hav nvr failed in cheering me up.. thx!

well.. yest many things happen.. i dun think i will tok abt it here.. but i saw 2 books.. or rather many books.. haha.. so meaningful!! save money time!

im thinking.. y after everything happen.. the next day.. an old lady will approach me.. today.. i helped a tamil old lady cross the road n climb the stairs.. out of so many ppl around her.. she ask for my help.. well.. im happy.. at least i can feel my existance.. n i feel great helping her..

May God Bless my Com..

i hope time machine can bring me to the future..

noT EasY

2005-08-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

BURP~~!! im full! felt like a pig.. i juz ate 3 bowls of macaroni, 2 plates of fried mee tai bak and 2 glasses of fruit juice.. lol. i noe im sot.. but well.. no comments for myself..

yest went work.. fingers kenna bruised for a day... type report oso muz tahan the pain.. everyone is asking me.. "y r u chionging work?" wat i ans them?!! lol. i oso forgot le.. well.. most of my ans is fake.. hahaa... im bo liao to say something so honest here.. but thatz the truth... i onli told one person the truth so far ba.. i think i juz need some space for myself ba... im kind of getting more n more sick of life.. well~ especially sch life.. itz not onli stress.. itz disturbing..

my mood is getting from bad to worse nowadays.. especially when the time is getting nearer and yet further.. well~ im stuck at where i m now.. i onli noe this.....................

im still thinking of him

InTeResTing

2005-08-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

here's something interesting to share... this is wat i found while doing research for my datasheet.. LOL.

Analogy: Old Love, New Love
Reactants are like you and an old boyfriend/girlfriend... content until you break up. You are in a state of agitation... activated complex... until you meet and bond with your new boy/girl and you are happy... at a low energy state... a new product has been formed.

hmm.. im tired... come back from work.. n need to do report le.. body aching.. sian... tml going work again liao..

Gang Chalet

2005-07-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lazy to update wat happen during chalet.. i onli noe im sick then.. 2 nights rain.. cannot go star gazing.. sadded.. n now juz recovered from sickness.. but still having bad cough.. lol. may i get well soon.. hee.. here r some photos we took during chalet.. lol. ENJOY!!

OOOoooUuUUuuCCCcccHHhh~!!~~~!!!

2005-07-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

*sobz* OUCH!! finger pricking is pain!! >.< all thx to Drea.. hahaha.. =x hmm.. wondering y?!! hahah.. i wanna be a nice fren wor.. i sacrifice my finger for Drea's FYP.. sad case is........ 1st poke of my finger.. little blood.. but juz sufficient for them ba.. BUT!! Blood Clog!! lol. bo bian.. i sacrifice another time.. now.. poke..
1 drip...
2 drip...
NO MORE!!

LOL. poor andrea.. i waste ur time poking my finger.. n guess wat?!! now my finger for that first poke is blue-black sia.. really painful!!! >.<

maybe i loss of blood.. drea.. i think u can donate ur blood to me leh.. hahaha... since ur cheeks was such a flush juz now.. muz be too much blood le.. hee.. *wink wink*

hmm.. past 2 days juz finish my 2 quizzes.. now feel much more relaxed le.. looking forward to chalet on sat.. 4 days 3 nights at tanah merah safra there.. but at the same time.. stressed.. cos i will be busy for the 1 week term break.. thatz bad~~

hmm.. ys is back from field camp.. kns.. sms me ask me if i got miss him.. he say sad case.. ppl sure reply no de.. so.. to make him happy.. i say yes lor.. then he say he's so "touched".. >.< qi si le!!*curse ys* hahaha.. hope he nvr read my blog.. lalala..

rebec of 30% angelity and 70% devility RoX more than YS of 1% angelity and 99% devility.. wahahaha... LOUSY!!

pursue my own happiness

2005-07-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

hmm.. stomachache for 2 days le.. now left with coughing... lol. im such a weakling ah.. this week got 2 tests.. that is InDchem and CGMP.. i wanna study hard!!

hmm.. i really admire that Gu Yue Tao... he really can influence one's thinking sia.. watever he says seems so right..

why a person alwayz stay so cool.. not wanting to explain his own opinions n feelings to others?!! how will others understand ur thinking ne?!! he said.. Learn to Love rather than wait to be loved.. he's rite isnt he?!!

one other thing mentioned is.. a person should let go of one past in order to move on.. n should not bcos of 1 impt person in life.. neglect the feelings of the rest.. this will make the world a more beautiful place..

hee.. nice..

Revealed!

2005-07-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

wat a day.. everything happen so sudden.. i feel that i will be dead anytime.. mum noe everything le.. except that she dunno the whole truth.. which is in fact howz the ending like.. well.. she dunno abt it ended..

im feeling lost..

luckily reach home.. i tok to my real brother abt it.. im feeling better.. surprisingly, i come to understand my bro better le.. poor him n poor me.. when is everything ending?!!

Breaking my dream

2005-07-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

well.. i dunno whether itz a gd dream or a bad dream.. but to me.. itz rather.. can be classified as a nightmare le.. lol.

characters in my dream: eric, zj, jar, val n dor

itz some sort of a game... funny lor.. eric, zj n jar r the players. the scene is mainly on a long "cliff-like" bridge.. itz very very very high above the ground.. the 3 of them were crossing the bridge carefully.. suddenly.. there are huge rocks falling from somewhere above.. then fearing that the bridge might collapse anytime.. the 3 guys.. run for their life across the bridge.. so that they can proceed to the next round.. suddenly.. that zj hor.. he say he cant let the rock keep falling.. so he stopped.. he got some special power lor.. jar helped him out at the same time.. then got one gigantic rock falling.. fortunately.. the 2 fellows managed to prevent the rock from falling onto the bridge with juz a narrow mountain tip.. the rock is balancing up there.. jar n zj very happy.. then they start running to meet up with eric ahead.. suddenly.. "BOOM" the rock bounced onto the bridge where they r standing.. the middle part of the bridge broke off.. it falls.. zj hanging himself on the right side of the "cliff-like" bridge.. jar hanging onto the left side.. then they were planning how to help jar cross over to the right side.. well.. jar planned to swing over so that zj can grab him.. but that zj.. haiz.. jar swing.. he oso swing.. then the both of them felllllllllll... alllllll the way down to the bottom level where they started. eric bo bian.. continue his journey.. suddenly val n dor appear in the form of angels.. they ask eric.. if he's waiting for jar n zj.. then eric explained.. cos 3 of them r a team.. since the 2 of them fell.. they will hav 14 days for them to catch up with eric.. if not.. thatz game over..

hmm.. a weird dream.. but hmm.. i really dunno wat that means.. hahhaa.. i juz noe something.. dun play games.. hahahaha... bleahz!

the inner me?!!

2005-07-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

feeling a sudden lost now.. im upset..

stayed back after sch at 1pm to do FYP.. everything goes well.. we succeeded juz after 1 try.. this a gd start for our FYP.. n ee chuan very happy.. cos he pissed a grp off.. cos the other grp do till so long.. cant manage to find the proper parameters for their HPLC analysis..

i headed to my ah gong's place after that.. this is wat happen.. short n sweet...
around 8pm.. went home with my mum.. reached home.. bathed le.. suddenly.. she juz said a sentence to me,"u hav changed.." she's saying very negatively to me.. wat can i say.. wat can i do? so i juz kept quiet.. n here i m.. feeling lost as i hav alwayz been..

WOOooo~

2005-07-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

WOW~ Rebec did something today... hahaha...

i juz edit another pic again.. seems that im improve.. lol. using paint n microsoft words to edit.. hahaha.. really ying liao.. =P nice anot?!! hahaha.. bleah~!

ans to my own qn

2005-07-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

i think i understand more of myself today le..

im alwayz given a chance to choose.. but im afraid.. afraid that i make the wrong choice.. sometimes to certain things.. i would rather.. i dun hav to make any choices... im someone who will think a lot.. perhaps.. too much for juz making a decision to something.. i will think back, think of the future.. the cause n effect.. i will think abt anything n everything possible n impossible..

argh!! plz help me!! wat can i do to reduce my thinking?!! im tired!! super tired.. my brain cells juz cant stop working.. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

something new

2005-07-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.. watched another 2 episodes of "shi ba sui de tian kong"... learn more things le..

being attractive or not attractive... is not that impt.. watz impt is.. juz be urself.. juz be wat u r n alwayz will be.. itz no use wearing a pretty mask to please ppl around u.. a fren should like u for who u r.. n not in love with ur looks..

n oso.. those brainies who detest attractive ppl.. be confident!! n dun look down on them.. they r good in many ways.. however.. brainies like u r onli gd with brains.. isnt it better to be soso in a lot of things than being the best in juz one thing?!!

from the episodes.. i come to believe in...
"Patience and Effort Bring Miracles"
dun u agree with me?!! lol =)

Chances and Choices

2005-07-03T19:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. once again.. im bored.. done my PCCC report and CSW assignment le.. Chatted with val for countless of hours.. hahah..

now.. wondering.. Y m i alwayz not given a chance to make a choice for my own life?!! i dunno y that sudden tot.. juz that thinking back.. im wondering.. izzt that im not given the chance.. or izzt that i din appreciate that chance given to me?!! HAIZ!! sounds complicated.. lol. now im wondering y m i wasting my brain cells on chim stuff..? lol. stupid me.. hee.. =x

i hav watched 2 episodes of "shi ba sui de tian kong" last night.. itz nice n meaningful.. i hav learned something out of the short episodes..
that is.......
there r onli 2 things fair in the world:
1. everyone is given 24 hour everyday to live on
2. everyone hav to face death
moral of the story: we muz make full use of the 24 hours of everyday to complete wat we should do n enjoy b4 facing death..

hahah.. next.. everybody should noe wat they wan to be out of life.. so that we could do things today n plan for tml.. we wun end up living aimlessly that way..

for that.. im still thinking.. *deep tots*

wat abt u?!! watz ur ambition?

Neoprints~!

2005-06-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

Free cell days!!

2005-06-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

wondering how sian m i anot?!! lol. im so sian till im playing free cells over n over n over again.. haiz.. wat the many days~~ n keep looking for free ppl to entertain me.. im sian till i got nth to write here le.. im in trouble!! i dunno how to continue with my pccc report.. haiz!! HELP!!

Happy Father's Day

2005-06-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

yest, had a great time at my ah gong's place.. celebrated bdae for him.. i will tok more when i hav all the pics taken..

HAPPY 70th BDAE!! AH GONG~! I LOVE U!

Wo Shi Ya Ting!! Wo Shi Xi Huan Zhu Gu Li De!!

2005-06-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

my mood dun swing like normal swing recently.. sometimes will swing vigorously.. sometimes calm like the ocean.. i miss taking ferry~ i miss indo!! i wonder when im going back.. haiz.. poly grduate.. should i go back or go other countries play ne?!! go indo can stay there for a while.. go there be teacher.. wahahaha.. not a bad idea rite?!! juz a tot though..

argh~! y im borned into a complicated family background?!! it maybe fun.. but itz has its negative side too.. the complicated it is.. the more problems will be faced.. sick n tired of all these..

the older i get.. the more complicated my thinkings r.. does this applies to everyone?!! haiz.. my attitude n temper r getting from bad to worse oso.. well.. sry for throwing temper today.. but one has her limits de.. hope u ppl understand.. im juz a typical Leo.. throwing temper r usual.. =P

sHoPPinG SpRee~

2005-06-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

well~ im sian now.. though there's stuff waiting for me to finish... i dun hav the mood of touching those stuff.. haiz... trying to keep myself occupied day by day.. itz tiring.. but done a lot of shopping this week...

SAT
went out with zj, yh n zx.. shop shop shop.. saw a lot of not bad looking shoes.. but the 3 of them say dun suit me.. haiz... nvm la..

SUN
went ah gong's house.. then my youngest uncle was toking abt his marriage in 1 or 2 years time.. he's 24 now btw.. then he say he's not rdy for the commitment n stuff.. my other uncles keep saying him la.. but i oso dun understand y.. i spoke up for my youngest uncle..
in the evening went Harbour Front with my parents.. bought a TV set.. then i bought my purple Nike shoes.. i like it.. itz unique colour attracts me ba.. but the design is the one i hav alwayz aimed for.. well.. now i own it..

MON
went out with val n jar... bot more wrist bands.. n a pair of star star earrings.. itz black in colour.. cool huh?

Today.. came back from sch.. went to get perfume for my ah gong.. the brand is dunno saint wat one la.. forget le.. itz original price is $85.. but cos of great singapore sales.. itz $60.. then cos the shop owner is my mum's fren... she charge me $55 with gift wrappings.. a great deal hor?!! the size is 100ml somemore lor..

hmm.. currently im sian.. no one pei me de.. oh!! here comes!! someone sms me!! lol. cya~

LiFe sUx!!

2005-06-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

wat hav become of me?!! i dun even understand myself anymore le.. everyday think of this n that.. itz juz not me!! im tired.. im sick of myself.. it has been a long time since i update my blog without faking out le..

ppl who noes me for that last few years.. they will say im naive.. innocent.. simple-minded.. some even afraid that i will be played by ppl around me... but m i still that way?!! m i still that strong, determined rebec?!! i guess im not.. most ppl said i hav changed.. perhaps itz my character... actually i hate the "me" now... i feel as if im a faker.. an actress in life.. a gal filled with hatred created by herself... i din plan it.. i din wan it.. i din like it... i ever had a wish for life b4.. i wanna end life with happy memories... that is hatred-free... but all these r shattering in me... itz not possible anymore...

the new "me" is so dao ren yan... im beginning to wan more out of life.. basically i juz wan everything to satisfy my way of life.. im not that naive anymore.. perhaps Don was right.. this world is changing.. itz not that simple as we tot it will be.. wat ppl r looking for now r not the true self.. itz the wealth, power n brains that one inherits.. all these sound sickening to me.. but i hav come to realize everything slowly.. suddenly feel there's a thick fog in front of me blocking the view of my path.. itz so hard for me to reach the destination.. so tiring.. i admit that im afraid of moving on... im scared of falling into a hole anytime where there's no return.. there's no light.. nth to guide me thru the path... i wanna giv up.. im thinking of giving up... y m i alwayz trying so hard juz to reach that destination... n there's not even a signal from that destination to let me noe that im reaching... izzt that like end point dun welcome me?!! or izzt im blinded by the fog?!!

wat r our loved ones around us trully for?!! r they out to help us thru our journeys?!! or r they our obstacles thru our journeys?!!! i cant stand the pride.. the prejudice.. the fakeness.. the lies.. n alot more which they cant put away with... wat they r doing or done.. saying or said.. all r affecting my life.. i really dun like to be controlled by someone or even my brain cells.. i hate that feeling.. n i dun understand.. y izzt im sent to the world n get scolded for nth... or even get abandoned for nth wrong i hav done... ?!!! bad happenings alwayz come one after another.. how m i gonna save my tears for better usage?!!! im such a failure..

frenz~ how will i noe who's the true ones.. who's the fake ones?!! who is juz fooling around with our frenship?!! how will i noe that?!! itz not as if i can read ppl's mind.. but to me.. frenz r more impt than anything.. but wat Don told me b4.. we cant trust anyone so easily.. we hav to learn to trust ourselves first... i realized i hav failed to do that... i dunno y.. so dun ask y... now.. there's a frenship which i feel that i will be losing it anytime or even i hav lost it alrdy.. an impt fren to me.. someone i hope not to lose as a fren... that person can be a best fren i could ever get.. but it seems to me that that fren is walking out of my life.. i got no idea wat can be done.. is this all over?!! juz giv up on that frenship?!! n be complete strangers for the rest of our lives?!! hav u ever think of wat it will feel like living in this world with all strangers around u?!! terrible isnt it?!! n yes.. here goes my tears again..

hoping that things will get better...

SOB Pet Sick

2005-06-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

Biggest Event for the past recent days: MY DARLING BIRD FLEW AWAY LE!! itz not coming back.. i cant hear him today anymore le.. im super duper sad... =(

Fri morning.. went jogging with eric n zj.. so refreshed in clz.. hehe.. so shuang.. then go Kbox with vaL n angeLa n someone wor... lol. angela's voice!! omg!! sweet~~ almost fall in love with her voice.. hahaha... her i mean.. =P go home.. damn tired liao.. lol

Sat.. meet eric, kiap, pk, cg, jar, vaL, xueer, dor for netball... lol. so sunny!! but fun.. lol. then they come my house see my com de prob.. xueer played with my birdy.. took pics of it.. (last few pics le) *sob* then val, xueer cook instant noodles for the guys... grr.. stupid pk.. shouted my name so loud.. juz to ask me wash utensils.. lol. nvm.. bleah! then wait for my bro to come home.. jiu go east coast together.. first time wor.. my bro joined my frenz play.. but everyone say he's quiet.. hahaha.. then dor dor say my bro shuai sia~~ oops! hee.. ok la.. kiap they all keep saying im more like his little sis.. grr~~ we gals blade instead of cycle wor.. poor dor dor.. sprain her ankle.. now bandaged liao.. look like my birdy.. white white colour de.. lol. then my mum called me while im on my way home le.. she say the bird flew away.. upon arrival.. the cage is empty.. my dad is downstairs carrying a touchlight... =( it really flew away!!! i wan it back!!! itz impt to me!! we search till 12 midnight lor.. dad making noises.. bird reply.. but we cant see the image of any birds... but we r sure itz our bird... i miss birdy!!! itz still nvr come back.. =(

then sunday went expo with my parents.. cut the long story short... juz any other normal day.. hmm.. that will be the 2nd day im crying for my lost bird.. lol

today.. late for sch.. complain to val abt my bird.. cried over it.. lol. at the same time laughing over it oso.. n thx wor.. DREA~ lol. then went cafe cartel hav lunch.. after that.. went bugis with val.. hee.. happiest moment of the day bah... i can do anything freely.. nth can stop me.. lol. went around shopping.. searching for val's bell bell.. lol. this gal ah.. bth.. wan big bell.. she complain too big.. lol. in the end saw the "average size" bell.. but rusty rusty de.. so nvr buy.. then we go buy wristbands.. hee.. dunno since when.. we start to be so trendy.. lol. i go look around for bags n shoes.. lol. then actually wanna buy a notebook de.. but i see a nice nice pencil case.. "WADEVA~" lol. i bot it.. though itz long.. but i luv it!! hehe.. so.. notebook ah... next time bah.. sry~ lol. reach home.. my mum ask me y m i home so early.. haiz... next time dun go home so early le la.. grr~~

$@!$#@%!$@#%$#%#^%!@%

2005-06-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

FUCK!!!! i hate my current sch life!!! im not happy at all since sch started!! i din expect my feelings n decisions to change that fast... taking a 180 degree turn n walk towards that dangerous n dark path...

Depression to Xtreme Depression to confusion to depression again to Hatred to anger n depression to total madness.. thatz my feelings for the past few mths.. cant believe it rite?!! the "H" u saw is not Happinesss.. itz Hatred... happiness nvr exist that few mths.. do u believe it?!!!

i wanna change it!!! n im so damn SRY!!! sry to hav shown attitudes.. there werent be any chance to see my attitude prob so frequently le.. cos itz too far for u to see...

anyway.. i dun think u care either.. so wtf i carry on saying... no one will noe wat im trully thinking.. NO ONE!!!

ALL changed?

2005-05-29T18:54:00.000+08:00

hi.. im here to update my blog..

thursday went dinner with SGS colleagues.. some "vegetarian" restaurant... is Jimmy suggest the place de.. then the rest dunno how to go.. onli i agaration noe the place.. itz at tanjong pagar mah.. my lao di fang.. then they tot i go there chiong de.. cos there r mostly pubs.. or KTVs.. but i onli went twice i think.. so.. dun think too much.. im juz familiar with that place nia.. so th to be amazed of.. we tok a lot of craps lor.. then very tired la... all got ppl fetch home.. onli me.. i went home alone.. haiz.. luckily got xy pei me on the phone.. then reach home.. bath.. hair haven dry.. slp le..

last day of work on friday, honestly.. even though there's still some unhappiness in work.. i miss work.. i miss work more than miss sch.. my poly life is juz fucked up.. i juz dun feel like going to sch.. how i wish i can turn back time.. i wun hav choosen Chem Process Tech if given another chance.. i could hav choosen banking n finance.. is all these.. wat ppl call it "Destiny" or "Fate"?!! there's too much regrets in my life.. i wonder y im here in the first place..

After work, went dinner with mr ho, n clzmates.. still.. im tired.. finish dinner.. went home n slp again..

yest went shopping at orchard with xueer n kel b4 going for bbq at mr ho's house.. xueer bot a lot of stuff.. n im still tired despite all my rest.. went join the rest for bbq after that.. n that is the first time i drink vodka.. n im here to apologize to those who r worried abt me for that.. im sry.. n im alright... dun worry so much..

this morning wake up.. im feeling sick.. headache/giddy-ness im sian.. sch starting tml.. but there's nth i can do.. i hate myself..

my new blogskin!

2005-05-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

well.. er.. ok la.. not i DIY de.. cos i lazy.. hehe.. =x then now.. a lot of new stuff im trying.. cmi sia.. all cannot work de.. qi si le.. eh.. i noe i VERY long nvr update my life le.. but.. next time then update ba.. too busy with life.. hahaha.. sry wor.. will update very soon de.. i promise!!